slimplicity

This Is It.

2007-10-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

yes, this is it.
on the 15th of october, 22.35pm, post number 727, my last entry for public blogging.
this blog has been gd t me, a nice ranting tool, and a tool i use t express stuffs i wasnt able t in person.
thank you blogger.
i may or may not be back, but if i do, it wont be any time soon.
until then.

will curse of october be gone tgt with this blog.?

saddest thing on earth.?

2007-10-15T00:56:00.000+08:00

get drunk on beer.
im trying v hard t type properly.
bear with it.

ZAO AN.

2007-10-12T08:25:00.000+08:00

geez.!
im up early again.
but rmb i said i was super tired night last.?
i went t bed at 11.30 or so.
couldnt sleep so i watched my bro play dota till 1.?
went back t bed and couldnt fall asleep still.!
freaking hell, the adrenaline from ice skating was keeping me fresh awake.
and i think the last time i was the time one my phone was 2.15.?
anyway i woke up at 7.15 today. -_-
im thinking im gonna be super tired tonight.

anyway.
afterall all e tossing and turning and thinking last night.
i would say daredevil would be the last word í would use t describe myself. LOL.
i rmb how i took 20 min t jump off the board for leap of faith during sec 3 camp man.
yest's ice skating sort of further empahsized this pt. well u can call me hum ji la. how sad.

and i also realised how much i think.
not as in think too much tt kind, although i do admit sometimes i do.
but i think a lot esp when the next big step/thing/whatever activity is coming up.
like before start of a new sem, before hols, and before some other things la.
its like how i picture myself t be, and how i'll be spending and dividing my time when the sem starts, or when e hols start.
picture perfect.
but it has never been the way i picture it to be.
well basically most of the time i picture myself playing hard, and working hard.
but on EVERY occasion im either just playing hard, or just working hard.
actually e way i picture a new semester is kinda scary and like super no life.
it usually consist of work, sch, go home study, have dinner with parents everyday, sleep early, score gpa 3.4 and above. LOL.
most of the time its just have dinner with friends everyday, sleep super late, never study until the day before exams, gpa 2.smth.
in my picture perfect thinking, friends are never in the picture.
i wonder why. cause .......
but anyway, its never the case.

geez.
i havent bathe. ok bye.
anyway its not abt whether u bathe or not before u go t work or go out i realised.
if u smell nice (Kar Mun) then by all means don bathe i dont mind la.
but if u freaking smell (CHINA BITCH WEN WEN) then shouldnt u bathe.?
and for ppl who DO NOT BATHE BEFORE THEY SLEEP *er hem lyn* YOU SHOULD BATHE BEFORE U MEET ME. ITS A MUST. anyway thanks for alwaya bathing before u meet me when i ask u to. haha.
ok just 10 min t bathe. bye.!
u prob wont see me blogging till monday unless i wake up early again. heh.

off day well spent. (=

2007-10-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

today's my best off day ever.
it was great.
couldnt have been better.

so i woke up 1 hour earlier than i was supposed t, as usual.
and then i took 45min train ride all e way t jurong east t meet e rest for ice skating.
my virgin ice skating experience was fun.
although i was like e most lousy skater, and most timid, but then 2 hours passed quickly.
first half hour was dreadful, i kept cursing under my breadth why i took 45min train ride all e way t humiliate myself, but time passed pretty quickly after tt.
i wouldnt mind skating for another hour, really.
i should say learning t skate.
so end of e day im still not v stable, but i see more 45min train rides t come. really.
million thanks t ariel, Kar Mun, and shane for helping me out.! (=

after tt headed down t bugis, tan quee lan st, not for tian tian huo guo, but for indulge.
pretty cool place, nice ambience and pretty nice food.
din had wine cause i dont think i can afford spending too much on food stuffs alr man.
then we headed down t haji lane, finally.!
nth much but its a pretty cool place.
can mark haji lane off my place-to-visit list alr.
then went back t bugis t find a place t chill, and get some drinks.

went terra cafe.
drinks were quite affordable.
and the guys were laughing over pussyfoot.
wad pussyfoot without the foot, as wet as possible. -_-
ok so headed home after tt.
quite early, but i was kinda tired alr.
in conclusion today was a superb off day and i really gt my batteries re-charged.

congrats t wenny.!
u've graduated.!
and congrats xinny, u're graduating tmr.!
and both of u havent tell me what u wan for ur bdae pressie.!

ok off t sleep.
nights.!

C&C.

2007-10-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

my horoscope says "ur mind is open wider than usual- which is saying quite a bit. someone close t you is holding back smth he or she thinks you do not want t hear, so let the person know you are ready for anything."
ok this has got me thinking the whole day.
haha. but seriously, if u think u're close, then u can say cause i'm willing t listen.
that is if u think u're close, cause i do practise selective hearing at times.

benchmarks.
the word benchmark simply means compare t me.
like how we set benchmarks for everything in life, sounds nice, but basically we're just comparing.
i've learnt some 2 yrs back tt some things cant be compared.
in every situation its gonna be different.
i wouldnt say i've stopped setting benchmarks, but i dont as much as i used t.
i just wish ppl dont benchmark me against others.
everyone is different. thanks.

so many things that im unhappy with about supervisor.
but im lazy t type them out all again so forget it.
he's unbearable.!!!
ugh.
he needs t learn how t give and take, and that subodinates today need empowerment.
I NEED EMPOWERMENT.!

finally its off day tmr.!
thankfully supervisor's not working for e next 3 days after i come back from my off day or else i'll die man seriously.
esp full shifts with him.

today was a pretty easy day i would say.
smoking wise.
as in i didnt feel as bad as i felt e past two days.
im hoping tmr's gonna be a lot easier with friends around.
i've gt my fav companion with me all the time-mentos strong mint. LOL.
i think i've had more than 2 sticks of mentos just today.

has a gls of house white today.
vin de pays.
but still equally lousy.
geez, the wine was kinda weak for me.

im not tired, but i've gt nth much t do.
yawns.

bear with me pls, i beg.

2007-10-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

im trying very hard here.
it has never been so difficult before.
because this time im doing it from internal motivation, all coming from within myself t stop smoking man.
not because of any other people, its just purely self discipline.
and boy is this tough.
im glad i've lasted for 48 hours alr.
but its gonna be really hard keeping this going.
i just hope im gonna succeed this time round.
im hoping i can quit totally, like not even social.
but seriously its gonna be really tough, i can feel it alr, the moment i told myself im gonna do it.
freak why did i make myself do this in the first place.
fuck.

finally got my pay today.
and i treated myself t a glass of house red after work.
and boy does it suck.
no volume at all, no wonder its vin de tables.
NTUC has AOC wines for 30+, cheap huh.?
at least i felt better after e wine.
and its good t drink a gls of wine a day yea.?

and i found out zoe's getting paid 7 an hour, but im not gonna request for 7 too cause i want them t raise my pay cause they think i deserve it not because i asked for it.
and im not trying t quit smoking cause matthew said he'll raise my pay if i do.
who would be happy getting a pay raise for doing smth good that's gt nth associated with ur work. not me surely, as much as i need the money.

suddenly i feel i kinda miss chatting with jeremy teo.
esp sec 3 times when we were pretty close.
of course i no longer hold a grudge against justin or jasmine, but i wish so much that he didnt know, we prob would still be really close friends now.

once again, bear with me pls.
if u've alr been giving in t me, just cont pls.
esp now.
i really need it.
thanks.

kim slaps ariel with a trout.

2007-10-09T12:13:00.000+08:00

geez.!
ARIEL CHIA IS ITTERATING THE SHIT OUT OF ME.!
but she's just so aborable.
miss hugging u. as usual.
see u on thurs.! (((=

2007-10-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

the wonders of alcohol.
feels great when u're all hgh and nth seems t be bothering you doesnt it.?
and this can be acheieved without smoking.
all the more it is good.
so i had a couple of shots of D.O.M because that's the only opened alcohol i have.
and 3 cans of tiger.
pathetic i know.
but enough t get me a lil high and im satisfied.
and feels so good t just let all ur emotions come out just like tt.
i need t watch a movie that can make me cry like a fucking loser.
any introductions people.?
i wanna cry till i have no more tears. bet that'll feel great.

power struggle.

2007-10-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

im no where near the wish i made.
and it was a super strong internal struggle i had just now.
with the help of 2 other ppl, i managed not t smoke today.
and i was feeling freaking uncomfortable.
not because im addicted or wad.
it just feels like bathing but not washing hair.?
urgh.! i hate this feeling.

sometimes i wish i can treat some ppl nicer.
sometimes i wish i can not treat some ppl too nice.
most of the time i just wish ppl can be normal.

im supposed t be in a game with cas and wn, but freaking hell la.
im freaking pissed, but i dont know why im so pissed also.
it has t be the october thingy.
will someone pls make this october seem like a better one pls.?
i think i NEED this october t be a good one, badly.

i really felt like leaving the house just now.
for a small thing.
i could use some alcohol now.

URGH.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck.

october's a mnth of headache.

2007-10-08T09:37:00.000+08:00

i think october's a mnth of headache.
esp when my dearest yingwen and huixin arent giving me any clue of what they want for their bdae pressie. (does this make u feel guilty enough t start thinking.? LOL)

beside that.
i just think past octobers has never really been too good.?
and i somehow feel this october isnt that good either.
at least until now there hasnt really been smth really good that would make me change my mind about octobers being bad mnths.?
and somehow i've got a feeling this october thing is to stay.

so, we've got another 2 full weeks before sch starts. (that's not e case for u lyn, u've got just one week. awwww...)
erm, holidays are gonna be over.
i wouldnt say i wish holidays wont stop, cause i kinda prefer doing projects over working.?
and its so much easier t catch up with friends.

blogging in the morning feels kinda weird cause i usually blog at night.
and im only blogging now cause i was too tired last time and i woke up too early this morning.
but ANYWAY, cause i was too tired t blog last night i decided t write in my diary.
and i checked, the last time i wrote in my diary was 11th july.
and it was kinda freaky la some things.
abt this diary thingy.

i hope i get my pay today man.!
and i hope mummy comes home soon with my porridge cause im freaking hungry.

2007-10-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

well oh well.
i didnt feel like working today.
up at 6 in the morning and there's nth at home t eat.
and im kinda sick of eating bread with chesse or ham or whatever spread there is available.
so i went t my mum's stall for fresh pipping hot chee cheong fun and porridge. (=
i think this morning was the second time i saw my mum this week.
life of a no lifer.?

so anyway kitchen air con wasnt working today.
it was freaking hot.
we had a thermometer in the kitchen and it read 36.6.
FREAKING HELL HOT LIKE PANG SAI.
whenever i step into the kitchen i can feel myself sweating like fuck alr.
i could really use a beer man.
esp when there are 3 cans of tiger in the bar's fridge. geez.

so supervisor pissed me off the moment he came.
luckily he came at 1 and i end work at 2.
the moment he came he was wtfing this and wtfing that.
well wtf are you wtfing here and there the moment u come.?!
it was fucking itterating man i tell u.
after scolding me with no respect at all for me.
1.30.
he immediately changed his tone cause he had a favour t ask.
supervisor: kim, you might need t stay back.
me: i cant stay.
supervisor pretends he didnt hear that.
2pm
supervisor: kim, they cook for u alr.?
me: im leaving at 2 wad.
supervisor: i thought i told u be prepared t stay.?
me: i thought i told u i cant stay.?
supervisor (with a fucked up face): kim, go punch card now.
THANKS MAN, MORE THAN GLAD T.

fuck sia. everytime wan me t stay then i stay.
wan me t leave than i leave.
think i wad sia.?
well fuck you.
YOUR DEAREST YALAM PART TIMER IS LATE AGAIN.
YOU THINK I CARE THAT U GUYS ARE GONNA BE DAMN BUSY WITHOUT ME.?!
HELL NO.
NOW FUCK THAT.

so i complained t julian e moment work ended.
i told him i cannot stand supervisor's attitude, cause the moment he comes he's wtfing this and that.
julian said ok, he'll talk t him later.
why am i not surprised spa ppl in the office, julian, china bitch wen wen, and sous chef daniel all do not like him.
why oh why.
and i asked for a beer from julian cause when we put the thermometer out in today's sun, it read 41.4, and it was freaking hot.
it was crazy, i couldnt walk t the bus stop in that kinda sun so i cabbed home.

oh did i mention matthew was such a cutie today.? (((=
all smiles today man, he's in such a good mood.
i think his goatee makes him look sexy.
he asked if i've quit smoking.
i said no.
he said he'll increase my pay if i do.
i asked if he meant it he said yea.
now how cool is that.?!
some big shot boss and cares so much for a part timer.
and then julian complained why isnt he getting such kinda incentives.?
so i guess its just for me.? (=

half time's over.
im thinking its gonna be 1-0. heh.

REJOICE.!

2007-10-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

well next's week's roster's pretty much up, and im pretty sure there wouldnt be much changes, or any even for fri, sat, and sun cause its hari raya and supervisor and new part timer iman are yalams.
which means i've got 10 hours on fri, 12 hours on sat and sun.
super happy la.!
at least i know working on these three days will pay for my "hair cut".

and i calculated this morning.
if i worked 36 hours next week.
i'd still be able t reach my target and have extra 60 bucks t spend.
but now i've got more than 60 im pretty sure.

i think im gonna hit 1.5K this hols man.
im thinking of doing smth that'll make me feel good yet bad, but i think everyone will whack me if they knew what im gonna do cause it wouldnt do justice t myself.
but im gonna calculate later and then decide.

LKY's cousin came for spa and lunch at green room today.
she is STB's director or some sort.
i think she's e one desmond lim worked with before, and he said she was horrid.
now i know why. hahah.

anyway period's two weeks late.
i think cause i was too tired from work.
and on my off day when i didnt had t work and was in a so much better mood period came.

morning shifts tmr and sun.
i hate morning shifts cause i've t wake up at 6.?
i always take one hour t prepare.
cause i need t eat breakfast, bathe (at least 15min), do business if i have t, read papers, and dilly dally abit here and there.
yeaps, and i usually reach 15min before work starts so i can chat with e chefs, smoke a cig, take my own sweet time t change, walk t office t punch card, and then start work. heh.

alrights overall today is a good day cause i wasnt unhappy with supervisor for anything.
when he doesnt piss me off he's quite a fun guy actually.
too bad he's too much of a MCP and most of e time he pisses me off. heh.
i wonder why im not sleepy.
and im so glad i finally washed my hair.!
arent u happy for me.?! (ESPECIALLY CAROLYN ONG TZE-YEE or should i say ong chee bye.? LOL)

I AM SUCH A SPENDTHRIFT.!

2007-10-04T22:37:00.003+08:00

geez, i hate off days now cause i spend tonnes on my hard earned money so quickly.!
the rate is spent money today is UNBELIEVABLE.!

ok so i woke up at 10am with a slight headache.
texted lyn t say i'll go cut hair first then call her when im done.
but i only left e house at 12 cause i was lazing around, and walking ard e house doing nth, and watching my bro play dota.
so i reached storm at a little past 1, and the lady who cut my hair e previous time isnt working there alr.
so i got serene t cut my hair.

what u're gonna read next is gonna give u a gasted flabber lol.
well so i got physcho-ed into doing this straightening thingy + treatment + cut for a promotional price of...
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$159.90.?
ányway the prospect of not having pong, frizzy, and unmanagable hair was kinda tempting so i went for it.
i think only qiqi will understand how i feel so pls dont tag and say things along e line of "i cant believe u spent so much on a hair cut", cause i swear im gonna whack u. lol kidding.
ok so e result of paying $159.90 i would say is softer, flatter, straighter, non frizzy hair.
that's a good thing, but honestly speaking it doesnt really suit me.
so not my style, and im not supposed t use wax, or clay or whatever styling thingy expect serum.?
its e most ex thing i spent money on this year, if i dont rmb wrongly.
now my budget's in a wreak.
I NEED MORE FULL SHIFTS PLEASE.! UGH.
AND NO, I DID NOT REBORN.!

so i went t far east e meet lyn after hair cut.
and we took 105 down t dempsey road, but we couldnt find where all e restaurants are.
so we took a cab and i din know why i told e uncle holland village.
so we alighted at holland village, aside from indochine and a pretty big coffee club that im quite sure Kar Mun will love t chill at, there's basically nth much there.
so we took another cab down t dempsey road and alighted when we saw e first restaurant.
that was a big mistake cause we had t walk ard in the freaking hot sun and only found where all e restaurants are after some 30min of walking.

many restaurants and cool chill out place over at dempsey but we settled for dome cause it was more affordable. heh.
after a horrid pizza at dome, it should be very horrid cause i was freaking hungry and i still thought it sucks, we went t harry's for a drink.
ok i had a drink, lyn didnt.
i think i was feeling guilty cause i tot i heard e guy who opened e door for us say "hello, how old are you", cause lyn said he said "hello, how are you".
geez, i cant wait t be legal age man.
ok i spent $30 on drinks and food, and another 10 one taxi. -_-

so i had a bombay sapphire and a glass of cab sav.
i think e cigs and drinks made my headache worst.
we were lucky t get a cab back t town.
went t paragon t get my macaroons, bought lyn's make up as her bdae pressie FINALLY (which i still think is a stupid pressie, but its practical i have t admit), and went t cuper cool toilet. -_-
so lyn went t meet her friends while i headed t tampines t pass Kar Mun e macaroons.

wish i could talk a lil' more with u but i'll have whole of sunday to.!
well hopefully e macaroons will make u feel betta, and its part of my apology for chalet.

on e way t tampines, supervisor called t say tmr's roster's changed.
SERIOUSLY MAN, THERE IS NO NEED FOR A ROSTER WHEN U CHANGE E ROSTER EVERYDAY.
dont know what these ppl are thinking man.
i was supposed t work 10-4 and meet qiqi and cas for dinner at J8 cartel, now roster's changed t 12-9.30 cause u know why.?
LKY's niece is coming t our cafe for lunch.
erm, is she that well known.?!
and wth la, he didnt even ask if i can work 12-9.30 tmr instead, it was an order.
if i take off on hari raya u can come back and work alr.
but i wouldnt do things that go against money in order t spite u, esp now since i exceeded my spending budget.

headahce was killing me on e way back from tampines t tpy man.
luckily i brought my earphones or else i swear i would have died on e bus.
it was freaking bad.

oh ya.
cause of e treatment and straightening of hair thingy im not supposed t wash my hair until tmr.!
freaking irritating man.!
i didnt wash my hair just now when i bathed.
and not before i go t work tmr.!
which means im gonna go 36 hours without washing my hair.! GASP.!!!!!
i feel so darty.

i need t plan again how much i wanna save man.
the haircut is so not my style.!
FREAK.!
and this headache is killing me.!

and lyn.
thanks for not complaining AT ALL walking all ard e place with me today even thou it was freaking hot and u were dressed for er hem.
look.! we've explored another part of s'pore.! aren't you proud.
and i gave u a chance t take back what u said today, but u didnt and u really sounded like you know who.
i'll just pretend i didnt hear it.
but i still wish u all e best.
love you.! (((= (as much as i love ulu pandan.! WAHAHA)

off t sleep cause headache is killing me.
nights.!

I AM SUCH

2007-10-04T22:37:00.001+08:00

freaking tired la.!

2007-10-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

GEEZ.!
I AM SO FREAKING TIRED.!

well i was supposed t go cut hair today.
but china bitch wen wen went home at 3.30 cause doctor gave her two days MCs cause she sprained her wrist.
which meant i cant leave iman alone at night, and i had t stay after 5.
iman's e new part timer.
20 yrs of age, malay and supervisor's previous collegue.
anyway supervisor's off today.
so i worked 10-10 today.
freaking tired man.!
nathan asked if i could work tmr, i said sorry i need an off.
i didnt have an off day last week and it was hell man seriously.
i desperately need an off day.
that's why i say, good girls have got no life.
i think i was a good girl last week. LOL.

so i din go cut hair.
which means i've got so many more things t do la.!
well im so glad tmr's my off day.
i can FINALLY sleep late, but i prob still wake up before lyn does.
and everytime its my off day i wake up damn early.
i hate this internal alarm in my body man.

i wanna peirce back my 2nd ear hole la.
hai. i wanted t get a 3rd one de lei.
but i think i wont be able t tahan e pain.
2 shots at one go. nope not for me.

i need t...
1. cut hair (SERIOUSLY MAN.! I CANNOT STAND IT ANYMORE)
2.dye hair (can wait till sch reopen or smth)
3. pluck eyebrows (last time i went was donkey yrs ago, lyn and i were supposed t go after my projects are completed, and that was like 2 mnths ago.?)
4. get lyn's pressie
5. enjoy a good meal with good wine
6. get a new atm card
7. buy jeans
8. buy more perfume cause i cant stand e smell of myself after i work, esp when i spend so much time in e kitchen slacking LOL. and i need a new small bag cause i dont wanna put it e kitchen and it smells like crap im embarassed t take public transport
9. go t e shop near mustafa t get my tequila at damn cheap price.
10. get a foot reflexology massage
11. get nathan teach me more about alcohols and e alcohol biz.
12. borrow some books on alcohols and cooking.?
13. lets just say i need t take more offs. but sch's starting v soon alr la. heh.

oh nathan has a new nick name for me.
kim e SPG. well i like e nick so im not gonna make him stop calling me that. LOL.

la la la la, la la la la, elmo's world.

2007-10-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

freak.!
im super tired but i dont understand why i cant sleep.
and no, im not thinking about anything that's bothering me.
so dont bother asking.

anyway i felt so damn good after complaining abt supervisor t Kar Mun on e phone yest and today.
i didnt wanna complain too much cause maybe its just me.
but then i couldnt care less alr, cause tolerance hit max even after i level upped so many time.

so anyway i realised relationships are based on trust.
regardless of what kinda relationship.
be it with ur partner, ur family, or ur friends.
yeap.
esp after talking t yingwen e other day, i realised how much trust plays a big part in whether ur relationship is a smooth going one or one that always have loads of problems.
however, trust can be lost over issues, and trust takes a long time t build, as least for me.
i believed i've lost e trust of some friends i have, and some friends made me lose my trust in them.
but im glad i've gained trust of some, and some have gained trust in me.
or so i hope.
and i stumbled upon a good phrase in life! section today.
and i'll end my post with it.

"trust is a currency of friendship. when there's no trust, then you're associates, not friends" -writer eunice lam.

couldnt agree more.

nth t do.

2007-10-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

this is e second time im doing this quiz. the first time i din post e results here cause i didnt think i answered truthfully. and this time i think i pretty much answered it very truthfully, and e result was different of course.

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.

A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.

In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.

You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

according t friends and how well i know myself, i think e first pt is true. hope e second one is. i do enjoy cooking but not art or music. not so sophisticated.
i hope e 4th pt isnt true but i think it is.

In love, you express your emotions through actions.

Taking care of someone is how you love them.

And you do it well!

ok this is very true.

At work, you do well in a structured environment.

You complete tasks well and on time.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

not so true. i do not like a structured environment, even thou im quite resistant t changes.

would love t be a chef.! (=

How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

do not think im competent in most things, neither do i think im very dependable cause i bastard ppl sometimes.

but im competent in some things, and im dependable t ppl who want t depend on me i guess.?

when u force someone t e maximun tolerance level, this is wad u get.

2007-09-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

was supposed t go for job interview at some pizza restaurant in tpy today at 3.
but china bitch wen wen called t ask me if i could go work immediately, that time was abt 1.25.?
then i said ok so i rushed down la.
and then....
supervisor said why im here so early.?
i asked if im supposed t start work now cause wen wen asked me t come now.
then he said no, start at 3.
great, i felt like i was on gotcha.

afterwhich i found out today's crowd was super good, and supervisor was late.
well if i were t continue ranting abt every shit that happened and every shit that i've been tru for e past few days i dont have t sleep alr.

anyway i felt like quitting today, it was that bad.
save ur sacarsm man, i dont need it.
and get serious, doesnt mean u're e supervisor u're always right ok.
ur fucking nagging abt communication and u're e one not communicating.
fuck u man.
pls in future, preach only wad u practise.
preach and preach but i dont see u doing it.
what's e point man.?
u deserve every bit of scolding julian gave u.
knowing that u got screwed by julian at least make me a lil happy. (sorry if i sound evil.)
its no wonder no one likes u.
u can go fuck urself.

on a lighter note.
i passed by my primary sch today.
thought of times when we'd play bball after sch, or chiong down from class room t get e best spot t play badminton.
and times when we played block catching everyday.
i miss those guys.
still rmb once when i wasnt allowed t go down t play, alan and gang came t my blk and start shouting my name, then they started going down from e 16th floor shouting my name, cause they didnt know which unit i stayed at, and my mum allowed me t go down t play.
i miss big book shop, mee rubus, pasa malam (rhymes with yalam huh.?), and i forgot wad u call that, but when u step on it, it swells up and bursts thingy.
im not sure if they were e best days of my life, but im pretty sure i dont mind going tru all that once again, so carefree.

and i saw herman on e way home today.!
man.! when was e last time we played vball in poi ching.?
havent been t visit coach e whole yr man.
but cant go now cause training prob stopped due t upcoming exams.
its time t pay her a visit.

speaking of which.
i was surfing e net trying t find out nice place t hang out and chill.
so i've come up with places i wanna go before sch hols end.
1. dampsey road.
2. holland village.
3. haji lane (yes ari.! will you go with me.?)
4. sunset way.
5. singapore indoor stadium.
6. sentosa beach again with all beach ppl pls.! I HAVE T FUFILL THIS.!
7. pasir ris beach. i've been wanting so so so badly t go. i love e rocks there. damn nice t chill.
8. east coast.
9. asian civilisation musuem. they have nice chill out restaurants there, but i think its kinda ex.
10. one fullerton.?

my utmost apologies if i disappointed u in any way when u offered t talk on e fone last night nd i said "not now, im watching soccer.".

=/

2007-09-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

super tired last night.
but i only managed t fall asleep after some 1 hour plus of tossing and turning.
so many things going tru my head.

should i go for job interview or hair cut on monday.?

what can i say.?

2007-09-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

i thought my prayers were answered when i saw you today.
but you didnt mean t stay.
you teased and you left, too early.
open e flood gates.

pls dont say u're not gonna do smth, only t do e next min.
if u know u're gonna do it, dont say u wont.
cause it'll only make matters worst.

i've been thinking.
maybe its not so much of a bad thing is it.?
who knows it might just be a blessing.?

tt's all.

2007-09-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

all i know is, you were late FULLSTOP

2007-09-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

all in e name of money.
break time now cause im doing split shift.
i cant believe it. but its all for e sake of money.
=/

summaried.

2007-09-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

1. today's paper said NLB is getting back $3m worth in fines, and i saw a letter from them on my desk when i got home, i've got $7.50 fine. lol.

2. i went amk hub twice today, first time t change money for green room and t buy milk for coffee. first time in my life i went amk hub was last week t change money too. 2nd time today i went t meet kai xin for dinner.!

3. long long time sinced i meet kai xin. and she still talks as loud as an auntie in e market. and she's still super auntie. bth. too bad we were both tired from work, so went home early after fish and co. and a little walk ard amk central. AMK CENTRAL.! THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE. and she reminded me chip's chinese name is qian jing. super farnie.! laughed a lot esp at fish and co. kbox will come, pls be patient. chip couldnt come cause she has korean lessons.? -_-

4. on e way home on 88 this indian fella play his music full blast, macham scared ppl dunno his fone gt mp3. -_- summore is bollywood songs. W T F.?!

5. walked home from 88 bus stop cause weather was not bad. walked super slow cause i was super full from fish and co, and my legs were tired.

6. when i was killing time today while waiting for kai xin, talked t daniel and ke wei. daniel's e spore chef la. and turns out he's quite a pro. he worked in this mid high end rest before he came over. and he was e sous chef over there. considering they serve carviar and salmon that cost $200 per Kg, should be quite high end. anyway he also worked in shangri la, oriental, and changi village hotel before. aiya zong shi he's quite a pro. i made him continue only tmr cause it was damn interesting listening t him talk abt his experience. (= finally smth new t look forward t at work.

7. realised its a blessing t do smth for a gd friend.

8. im tired alr. time t sleep. pray i dont need t do split shift pls. and pray i'll be able t get another job on top of working at green room if they only need me t work 4 hour shifts everyday.

`did you see e moon tonight.?

=/

2007-09-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

i got my pay but i couldnt bank into either account cause i forgot e pin for both my posb and ocbc acct.
sians.

times were great when i was still your dear aunt kim.

take good care, lyn.
im sorry.

woke up early, so...

2007-09-25T09:29:00.000+08:00

blogging these days will come by less often cause there isnt really any point in blogging cause everyday's about work.
and u wont see me online after eleven cause i'll prob be in bed alr. (lyn, are u reading this.? pls take note ya. LOL)
super no life, i know.
but for e sake of money.
actually working everyday is good cause you wont have time t go out, and you wont spend money.

pay day was supposed t be yest but nathan said he'll pay me today instead.
and the cut off date was 15th sept.
which means im only gonna get 300 plus.
not bad right.?
cause i started working on 8th sept.
which means one week i earned 300 plus.!
im closing in on my 1.2K target.
anyway if i reach my 1.2K target then maybe i'll take 2 days off on e last week.
yeaps, or else i wont do justice t myself.

oh ya.
so what if manchester united beat chelsea.?
seriously man, i dont feel proud at all.
and im not at all happy about e victory.
cause i wipe tables with more conviction than the way chelsea played.
as much as i hate chelsea, i miss jose and e spice he brought t EPL la.
chelsea's lacklustre performance sums up how little chelsea is worth without jose.

trust is impt.
i guess my lack of trust in u resulted in today's situation.
so its both our fault.
i'll need more time t think if i should approach this matter with my heart, or with my head.

thanks Kar Mun. (=

will all i need surely come.?

2007-09-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

i made a wish.
and i really hope t fulfill this wish.
for people who care about me and have been telling me this time and again, but most importantly im doing this for myself.

making a wish reminds me of my third birthday wish last yr. (only u know, qiqi)
i was thinking if i should make e same wish this yr just now at work.
then i thought i should save my wish for smth else since it didnt come true.

no off days next week.
how cool is that.?
but i've gt two days where im just working 12-4, so yea i prob can get some rest or a meal whatsoever.
then rest is all at least 8 hrs. (=
i can see e money.
pay day tmr.! (=

man im super tired butits man u trash chealsea match.
die die also must watch.!
i'll miss u jose, i still think u're darn sexy. ;-)

nothing's quite e same now.

2007-09-21T14:21:00.001+08:00

ignore e title, just an emo phrase t sum up how i feel these few days.

SO (caps t signify heaving), how would i describe e chalet.?
many things which i wish i can say here, but its better not to.
so lets just say it could have been better, or maybe i should say a lot better. =/

prob only slept for half an hour or so.

argh, i hate feeling restricted so the post's gonna end here.

sorry to those who got shit from me cause i wasnt feeling good.
esp matthias.

right up there.

2007-09-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

wa seh.
i was super duper uber pissed at work today man.!
so many things accumulated bomb tgt is really HG and GG man. Xs 10.
RAHHHHHHHH ( e way yingwen always says it )
but i told myself.
kimberly, be humble.
kimberly, be modest.
kimberly, you gotta learn how t take shit even when u're getting fucked from all directions.
and bloody hell i continued getting fucked even after i end work.
now how's tt for a start.?

anyway i managed t clam myself down enough, like totally nt pissed anymore man.
super impressed with myself.
and its one big big level up, really big one i'd say.
super proud of myself.
and i told myself if 10 yrs down e road if im still in this line.
i'll make sure u're e one running ard and getting fucked by me.
this is what im gonna say in ur face with loads of saliva.
"WHO'S UR DADDY NOW.?!"

coming home t get fucked again doesnt make things any better, but that was nth compared t what i got at work.

on a lighter note.
chalet's tmr.
thank goodness man.
a much needed breather.
hopefully i'll be able t get sufficient rest.
and im working on saturday at 8am. -_-
so much so for rest huh.?

ok so im getting my pay on monday and i'll be working for 6 days next week.
doesnt really sound like a part timer huh.?
i think so too. heh.

million thanks t Kar Mun.
i can so feel u talking beside me even when we're just talking online.
u made my day. =D

`ask me e sex qns agn. ;-)

work and more work.

2007-09-18T22:05:00.001+08:00

learnt more stuffs at work today.
well its good working with noh and nathan because i always get t learn new things.
yeap.
nathan is almost like a father figure i feel.
when he saw me smoking, he told me not t smoke too much + a pat on e back with his paper. (=

anyway darling ari dropped a surprise visit.!
i cant believe she thinks the food is too healthy.?
coming from ari.? hmmm...
i tot she was kidding when she told me yest she's gonna come visit.
so jweet of her. (=

super tired and kinda lazy t blog abt what i learnt at work today.
but im glad im not going t work just t earn money, but i get t learn new stuffs.
so its good.
at least i wont feel tt my holidays were wasted when sch reopens.
i wanted t learn guitar, tennis, and rollerblading.
but i think those require some effort, and i dont think i have time t learn them well enough, well at least at e moment.
so i'll just learn my trade, and hopefully i can apply them t service next sem.!

nights all.!

thinking...

2007-09-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

initially i planned t go market early in e morning t get e sting ray, sotongs, fish, and chicken wings cause not v nice t ask my parents t carry them home.
but they wanted me t work at 10 instead of 12 tmr.
and im not sleeping yet, so maybe i'll go on wed morning instead.
dont think i'll have e energy t go tmr anyway.

so work was pretty sucky man.
i dont know why business is so bad, seriously.
first two days of work was crazy, i kept thinking we needed more ppl cause it was soooo bz.
but we only have 2 tables occupied today.?
so sorta did some inventory check thingy.
quite amazing they dont have inventory check, and we're only doing it now.!
1 yr after it opened.?
anyway i think i've got a lot t learn, ok it should be i've got a lot t learn, and i would say im willing and i want t, so im hoping things will get better come november.
shallnt say it here thou.

because biz was so bad they sent me home at 4, which meant i only worked 4 hrs.
but its not so bad, cause i thought i learnt a lot today just being there even thou bz was so bad.
so i wenta meet des and ari at white sands, they were there t check prices for e stuffs we're gonna need for chalet.
i got Kar Mun along too.
but by e time i reached they alr completed the price checking thingy.
so it was good t meet up with e peeps, esp ari cause i havent seen her since last day of exams.
such a pity we couldnt hang out longer.
but i finally gt t hug ari. (=
so glad chalet's coming.!

went t Kar Mun's hse t chill till 10.?
was supposed t take 53 but i think i got influenced by ari and got some of her bimbo essence stuck onto me, i wenta take 58. -_-
but anyway on e way home i thought a lot. like A LOT.
about a lot of things.
like stuffs im troubled with at e moment.
and why im working so hard for, cause lyn asked me why i chiong so hard for, made me think a little.
but i know why im working for hard for, and i think its e right decision i made.
anyway basically its more about where i think i will be in future.
yeaps.

t end off.
this is what irene ang said for her interview in today's papers tt made me think quite a little.
"if you don't know who you are, you become who people think you are, and you wont be happy"

im asking myself why im smoking.
im definitely passed e phase of thinking smoking is cool, but i dont know why im smoking now.
is it because its become a habit.? or is there some other reason tt i do not know of.?
im asking myself if i have a mind of my own.
im asking myself who am i actually.
im asking myself who i want t be in future, and where i want t stand.
i guess im asking too much. heh.
alrights off t sleep.

am i.?

2007-09-16T17:14:00.001+08:00

thinking too much.?
thinking too much.?
thinking too much.?
thinking too much.?
thinking too much.?

work.?

2007-09-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

work yest was boring without nathan ard.
seriously, i think wen wen is a little crazy. serious.
no wonder ah cai and ke wei warned me earlier on.

went LK with lyn and huixin after work yest.
and we met tt china woman who didnt know hw t use e camera e other time.
seems like she hasnt improve one bit.
who the hell says sexy on e beach.?!
KAO.!
i'd prefer a hunky on e beach.?

nathan wasnt ard today too.
but we have a new supervisor, a malay.
apparently he has been under nathan some sort la, and spent like 1.5 yrs in indochine.
man this sudden influx of ppl with so much knowledge of alcohols makes me feel like drinking.
ok that's an excuse.

yingwen and huixin made a surprise visit today.
thanks.! =DDD
and their yoghurt had enough fruits t make 3 portions cause ah cai was damn nice t put more mango and strawberries when i said it was for my friend.
and i din mention ah cai and ke wei are damn nice cause they baked 2 pastries and one spring roll for me when i was hungry. (((=
and ah cai gave me e muffin julian gave him, he said i can have it. (=
so nice right.?!

i love it when i inform customers we've ran out of vanilla ice-cream for apple strudel and we're replacing it with rum.
and then they say "oh that's even better."
these are ppl who know hw t appreciate e good stuff.
our rum ice-cream is seriously, the best rum ice-cream i've ever had.

stupid customers.
isnt it stated there's cheese.? wth.
anyway its dairy not diary. hello.?!
and there was this guys who wanted his main course t be put on hold first.
then he said "dont want t come too soon".
sure.! u can cum anytime u want, and climax a lil later if that's what u wan. ;-)

oh yea i saw christabel on e bus when i was on e way t work yest.
so she's in SR now.
never change one bit thou.
still look exactly e same as in sec 1.
i think we might be good friends now had she nt left for cedar.

super tired now.
nights.

super tired.

2007-09-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning t my maid screaming "kim.! earthquake.!"
then i just said i know i can feel it and went back t sleep.
it was quite bad, e worst i've ever experienced.
u can always feel earthquakes in tpy.
i felt it last night and this morning.
heh.

work was good and bad today.
bad cause there weren't many ppl, so it just gets kinda boring when u have nth t do.?
anyway e guys from e POS system came in today t give us a 'lesson' on e system and t hear what we have t say abt e system.
so anyway e system was a lousy one and there are super many loopholes.
now i know why we study POS and accountings.

good because nathan was there.?
he's the manager, yeap.
super cool guy who wears slim cut pants that makes his arse look kinda perky and cute. ;-)
anyway he's like super pro and experienced in everything.?
i was super impressed with him when he talked t e POS system guys abt e loopholes in e system.
and then cause there werent many customers ard during night time, we talked quite a lot.
both abt e industry, and yes u guessed it so, sex talk.
seriously man, i think i've heard too many stoories abt fnb ppl being super jian and e fact tt they dirty talk, tt now im starting t think there wont be one day where i work in a fnb place without any such ppl.

anyway e main point isnt abt e sex talk, seriously.!
he's like a super experienced guy in fnb, and he helped set up loads of outlets.
modest, easy-going, and someone who command my respect.
his theory is "you can do anything you want, just dont get caught."
he said he learnt this is army, but it applies t him in everything else he does.
its good t know a lot abt this industry, fnb or tourism whatsoever, esp from someone who has so much experience.

sex talk was abt hw red wine is a good aphrodisiac, as well as cashew nuts.
didnt know cashew nuts are good aphrodisiac.
first thing tt comes t my mind when i think of aphrodisiac is oysters, but he says there's are so many more stuff than oysters.
he had a bottle of red wine i think, and some white wine.
then he say its good cause he can go home and satisfy his wife a bit.
then i say "more like satisfy urself.?"
then he said "no, that's what all women think. sometimes i prefer t sleep. but i've got so many responsibilities, must satisfy this and that."
i just said whatever.

oh and he taught me hw t differenciate a bordeaux from a burgundy just by looking at e bottle.
super cool.!
so sad he's not working tmr. )))=
else i can learn a lot more abt e industry and wines from him.!
looking forward t working on saturday now cause he's gonna be there.! (=

super tired now la.
if not for meeting des online at 11.30 t discuss abt chalet i would have gone t sleep.

am i asking too much from you.?
maybe i just am.
i wish i felt like u're asking too much from me, but i think u're not even asking for anything im starting t qns myself why.

my day off.

2007-09-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

so i went out with Kar Mun, yili, shane and linus today.
first went t marina square for bowling. had 2 games.
then went over t cine for dinner at pasta.
they serve wine now.! so i got a glass of white wine t go along with my creamy chicken.
then we went shopping.
wa lao i think this sentence is like not very true t myself, so i'm gonna rephrase.
i accompanied the rest as they went shopping.
this feels so much better.
shopping has never been my interest, well ok i think one period in sec 3 i was kinda interested.
but only then. heh.

took mrt t pasir ris with Kar Mun.
bought bubble tea and walked t her home.
i think we took about 45min. lol.
but time passed super fast.!
i wish we could walk a little longer, or 88 took longer t come.
so we could talk a little more.
but there'll be more chances in future, if we're still friends that is. haha. kidding.

so we got our results from sms service sch provides.
got a B+ for accounts.
even thou i kinda expected it was either going t be a low A or a high B+, i still hoped very much i would get an A, so i can give my virgin A in poly t teo peck.
man thinking of teo peck gives me images of linus giving her dick slaps till her specs drops.
bloody sick right.?
then i got C+ for both ROM, and BESE. and a B for both AM and LnR.
tot i'd do damn baldy for LnR but its good enough for me la.
i cant rmb wad i got for my AM coursework so B's good.

i have an interest in alcohol, but for the dunno how many times i've said alr, i'm repeating myself.
I AM NOT AN ALCOHOLIC.!
and i dont really like t be labelled as one, so if u dont mind, pls stop using that term on me.
that'll be greatly appreciated.

oh i got my working schedule alr.
so im as good as working as a singaporean full timer.
almost 8 hours everyday expect 6 on monday.
which means i wont have time t meet ppl unless i go out for drinking again at night.
and i haven planned for class chalet.
and i only have off on chalet days. dang.
wish me luck ya.?

oh i cant believe i spent so much yesterday and today.
graveyard alone cost 28. but it was money well spent la, to me at least.

so here's the 4 core subs we're gonna have next sem.

Management Accounting & Finance for Hospitality & Tourism
Service Skills Methodology
Meetings, Incentives, Conventions & Exhibitions
Festivals & Events Management

im pretty looking forward, service will definitely be fun la.
i mean working with all your classmates should be fun.! i wonder if we'll be jian zui when working. haha.!
MICE is smth that's coming up, so it'll be gd t knw more abt MICE.
then festivals and events management is pretty much a must, but i think its interesting.
prob teach me hw t organise events and get ppl t respond quickly enough and not get myself fuckstrated over lucklusture replies or whatsoever. sacarsm, yes.
accounts is just accounts lor. hopefully i'll be able t get my A this time.

alright.
off t sleep.!
i think i'll only see LRM ppl again during chalet.
man its gonna be a long 7 days ahead, then chalet and back t work e next day.

drinking.

2007-09-12T02:24:00.000+08:00

work was alright la today.
after work went t clark quay t meet Kar Mun, linus and yili.
yili is Kar Mun's close friend, in case u dont know.
anyway it was great.
had a cosmo, some beer, and graveyard.
the graveyard made me a lil' high.
just a little i swear.
super fun, like even thou we didnt really talked alot.
just hanging out was great.! (=
i miss you already Kar Mun.!
see u in less than 14 hours time.!

the ghost of you.

2007-09-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

i think the judging criteria for hey gorgeous sucks, and they should have judge t be e same for every week, else it would be super wonky.
anyway i'll leave comments i have abt TP's episode today t myself, t be safe.

Tay Yek Keak and Sandra Leong are superb writers la.!
theyir column never fail t make me laugh and they're super jian as well.
sandra's column today was how she discovered the epiphany that men make much better playmates than women, when it comes t sports.
couldnt agree less.
man, i just love jian ppl.

well green room cafe's gonna be super interesting come november.
they're gonna have a bar, a wine retail shop, and a deli with pasteries and cheeses.
super cool.
and opening hours will be 8am-2am.
18 hours.!
i wish they'll give me 18 hour shifts, so i can get money coming in really fast.
and i really really wanna work in the bar, as a bartender of course.
and hopefully i can gain more knowledge on wines, since there's gonna be a wine shop, and julian has 14 yrs of experience with french cuisine, bet he knows a hell lot about wines.
even more so when management's e one that manages indochine.
so exciting.

gonna be a long day tmr.!
8-11.30 gotta help take over my dad at stall cause he's going fishing.
then 1-10 at green room.!
and there's a function for 20 tmr. hope its not those high end ppl again.
super stuck up and no manners, always see ppl no up. pui.!

anyway gd luck t you yingwen for ur prelims.!
you'll do well, flu bug's gonna go away very soon.!
heng heng rocks.! (ok i say until very mian qiang. lol. so long as u think he does.!)

did i blew things out of proportion.?

JIAN.

2007-09-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

oh yea.
i forgot t mention my dearest hui xin has become a jian person too.!
haha.! so cool now both xinny and wenny are jian ppl.
and they will becoming increasingly jian, i like. haha.!
just make sure u're still so jian 2 mnths later ok.! haha.!
I LOVE JIAN PPL.

pain.

2007-09-09T23:53:00.001+08:00

ok, a couple more mins to 10th sept.
so i can still say HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN.!

so work was pretty bz cause we had t turn away some customers due t lack of tables.
two new ang moh girls came in t work.
zoe was great, laura was kinda er, bummer.
long story, too lazy t blog.
if u're lucky i'll tell u in person.

and julian brought his family down.
guess what.?
he has 4 kids.!
geez, this man is one hell of an animal.
so sad la, he has 4 kids.
but then i think im so over him.
haha. yes so fast right.? just one day lol.
MAJOR INFATUATION. lol.
anyway i realised yesterday's post was by far the most well received entry i've ever had, ok maybe for this yr la.

went down t join Kar Mun, shane, linus, shawn, taihong, and des at suntec.
watched i know who killed me with Kar Mun and shane.
i would say 3 .5 stars.
quite nice la, but very gan jiong sometimes, and we gt t see lindsay lohan's nips. lol.
and some other girl's la.
shane was getting all excited.
but it was pretty RA, the sex scene was more real than knocked up.

went burger king, then chilled for awhile before heading straight home.

12-6 tmr.
just 6 hours so sad.
i want more hours pls.!
i need e money.

nights.

SET ME FREE BABY.!

2007-09-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

oh boy oh boy.
i cannot contain the excitement, sexcitement, estatic, elated, exultant feeling im having right now la.
geez, i think im about t explode. haha.!

PS: if u're one who cannot stand gore, pls stop reading and close e window now. LOL.

oh im just happen t be listening t "the trouble with love is- kelly clarkson".
even thou its like nt a very "promote love" song.
this is all i can hear right now.

It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call

yeaps, haha.
i really cant refuse the call ya know.?
we'll get t there later.

so today was first day of work at green room cafe.
cabbed down since i wasnt sure hw t go, and it was raining.
so i saw julian (his name is julian not juliano, he's an aussie.!) on e way t e cafe.

Julian: Wait awhile, i'll be just around in a second.
Me: Sure, take your time cause i'll wait for as long as it takes.! (Smack his ass, wink and walk into e cafe)

after he came back from getting fresh milk...
Julian: Would you like some coffee.? (with extra sexy megawatt smile)
Me: Yes pls, anything you make, with loads of white stuff pls.! (Bits one side of lips + come hiter facial expression and smoky eyes-Kar Mun knows best.)

after bringing me tru a breif walk ard e area, he leaves me with wen wen and proceeds t the kitchen, not before he says....
Julian: If you need me, you know wher t find me.
Me: I can find you right here. (points t heart, heart throbbed a little higher out of my chest, abt 10 inches, just a lil'.)

the other full time waitress is wen wen, a china girl from shang dong.
very down t earth, very hardworking, cant speak any eng thou.
two other full time chefs, both from china.
also very down t earth and nice ppl.
cook great stuff, really.

anyway work was pretty manageable.
but their POS system has major problem, when i key in e order i have t take the order t the kitchen summore lei.! WTH, not maximizing labour skills man.
i can do other jobs during tt time la, say a BJ for Julian.? (LOL, kidding la.! STOP squirming in ur seat.)

ok so i think their yoghurt, portabello burger (r u reading this shane.?), and tom yam noodles are like the most popular.?
looks very delicious really.
if im in a good mood i might brg some when i have e chance.
pray hard im always in a good mood alright, but then its hard not t be in a good mood when Juju's ard isnt it.? (awwqq, touches chest with right hand tt's connected t a flimpsy wrist).

oh yea Juju's e chef and also a co-owner la.
then he went home at 5 t get a shower so he can come back a little later t help do waitering.
then he was making coffee t take away, so i went up.
Me: Can't live without coffee can you.?
Julian: Ah, its for my wife.
WA LAO WEI Xs 10 la.!
i tell u i really felt super duper disappointed can.! hais so sad.
i felt so weak, as if my knees were about t buckle. really.!
hais, we'll get close Juju, we will.
i know we will. all the more i want t work straight shifts, so i can get t see u strut ard the kitchen in those hottie pants. (licks corner of lips)

Juju asked if i ever studied any module on cooking in my course, he knows im in tourism cause i told him tt during e interview.
wa lao now i regret not taking culinary science even more else i would be able t strut ard the kitchen and do e cha cha tgt with him.
so much easier t accidentally bump into his cute lil' arse. URGH.! (exasperated like pang sai)
KILL ME.!

wa lao actually i was pretty happy that im like e only one who knows how t speak eng la.
cause the 3 full timers cant speak eng well, so its like Juju can talk to me and only me la.
then bloody hell 2 ang moh woman came for interview.
POOF.! just like tt, my only chance of getting close t him. hais.
and they're from aussie sch la.!
bet they're here t tiao buo li jian btw Juju and I, but it aint gonna happen cause our love is strong.
anyone one of that ang moh's starting work tmr.
but hey.! im starting at 8 tmr.!
which means i get to see Juju first time in e morning for opening.! heh.!
so sad i couldnt do closing with him today. miss you.! LOL.!

oh after i knocked off at 8.
Juju and bitchy Debbie were drinking some wine and champagne la.
so.....
Julian: Would you like some expensive champange from Spain.?
Me: I would love to.
eh wa lao how shiok can a job get man.? you get t drink expensive champagne from spain.!?
WA LAO I WAS IN HEAVEN.

anyway i asked if they were gonna expand and have a bar.
he said yes.
then i was like oh i've always wanted t be a bartender but ppl dont hire ppl without experience like me.
then he said im at the right place cause he's willing t train and he's glad i want t learn.
wa lao i really see my future in green room cafe man.!
i can be a bartender finally.!
so happy.! now u know why im so happy.

Green Room Cafe.
6 per hr.
free meals.
meal time still got pay.
hot boss.
pretty manageable.

Sizzler.
5 per hr.
one our break fo meal no pay.
no meal allowance and suntec food super ex.
manager like lanlan lilian and allan siew with stupid moh peng face.
busy like pang sai, so political.

says it all doesnt it.?
anyway i think my eng will improve if i continue t work there for long.
cause all their shareholders are super ang moh pai, and come on, i'm with Juju, how can it not improve right.?!

one of their shareholder is matthew.
the son of the boss of indochine and their group of restaurants.
haha, he wore a burberry shirt, LV belt and was carrying an LV briefcase. heh.
can i get t contact jeffery personally pls matthew.?
but he has attitude and i dun really like him.
and e rest of the shareholders.

esp alan.
overheard him saying...
why do i have t fly biz class when i can fly first class.?
and both my children are alr in university.
wa lao money too much man these ppl. slap.

oh ya,
very random but Julian said Me and Wen Wen, i didnt bear t correct him.
Its Wen Wen and I, baby Ju.

anyway alot of other interesting stuff at work but im too lazy t blog la.

oh yea qy asked me t help her solve a maths qns 2 nights ago.
so happy la.! got maths t do.
its P6 math.
but i could only use algebra t solve and P6 dont like algebra.
so quite sad. haha.
dont whack me pls.

anyway people, if u're reading this.
then ur threshold for disgust and gore has upped another lvl, thanks to me.
congrats.
you'll get ur cert soon. (=

adious.

good news and bad news.

2007-09-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

today is the first time i felt like i sweated la.
playing squash with my dad.
super fun and tiring.
i already felt my lower back aching when i was playing la, cause u have t bend to hit e ball.
anyway i got thrashed by my dad damn badly la, he kept attacking my backhand. loser.
anyway my dad is so stingy he doesnt wanna change e grip for the racket, now my hand has blisters. -_-

on e way t play squash.
i went for the interview at greenroom cafe.
its an organic cafe for some spa thingy at bishan park.
super healthy la their menu is.
first let me tell you the name of the boss, his name is juliano.
doesnt it just scream ANG MOH.! haha.!
you know what.? this is fate la.
really, i'm just fated t work with an ang moh, or you can say work for an ang moh.

anyway i think their customers are full of ang mohs, and the ppl who go t that spa are ang mohs.
im thinking when the husband drops e wife at the spa for a massage or smth, he'll come over t have some coffee.
then i'll take my chance, go up and DA SHAN. WAHAHA.!
that is my evil plan.! heh heh heh. who knows i might just hook onto one. woo.!
come on ppl, be excited for me pls.!

can check out their website.!
http://www.aramsaspas.com/greenroomcafe.html
oh yea, the pay rocks too. $6 per hour straight shifts. my fav la. one day more than 50 alr.
first thing im gonna do when i get my pay is t buy lyn's pressie. haha.!
i think i'll only buy reen's one when i know im gonna see her la.

here's the bad news.
they're so in need of ppl that im supposed t start work tmr, 10-10.
ok this is not a bad news, but im supposed t work on sunday too.
which means i wont be able t go for shawn's bdae celebration.
sorry, im a bastard.
but i think if i said no t working this weekend then they wouldnt hire me.
sorry shawn.! )=
i'll treat u t lunch after i get my pay.

I NEED TO SCREAM, BADLY.

2007-09-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

thanks t matt who asked us out for bball last night, else i would have exploded at home.
anyway met wai ngee + 3 friends, casper, matt, james + 2 friends for bball at amk.
why am i not surprised everyone's late, well except matt.
i think my stamina is really worst than before i joined vball in sec 1.
yes, its that bad.
anyway feels good t sweat, finally.
and im gg for squash with my dad later at 5. (=

planning for something is alr v difficult.
esp when so many ppl are involved.
seriously, i dont understand why ppl cannot help make things easier just by cooperating, at least reply t smses la.!
wth man.
if everything doesnt go smoothly its gonna be my fault.
i dont need credit if everything goes well as plan, but i just want t finish everything asap so i dont have t have last min worries.
esp when it concerns so many other ppl, you think i give a damn if its smth that concerns only me.?
HELL NO.

t make things worst.
i was supposed t go out with ms doreen tan pei zhen yest.
she was supposed t call me the night before when she got home.
but the call didnt come.
so i tried calling her hp on several occasions but no one ans.
i texted her and she didnt reply.
i called her home and no one picked up.
when i woke up yest morning i receive no msg or missed calls from her, letting me know she just went t sleep after reaching home.
the whole of yest i tried t call her hp and sms her, even until after i came from from bball, and guess what.?
im not surprised u didnt pick up or phone or reply t my msges.
im not sure if im pissed u know reen, this is the worst case of "put aeroplane" i have ever gotten from any friend.
4 mnths ago when you put aeroplane yet again on lyn and i, i told lyn im not gonna contact u anymore unless u make the first move.
abt 3 mnths into that, i decided u just aint gonna make any contact, so i asked u out again.
lyn said it was a good choice and was glad i figured out tt was the right thing t do.
i rmb during sec 4, when we were supposed t meet at 1 or smth, and you were still asleep, so was lyn.
i had t go t lyn's hse to wake her up, before both of us go t ur hse and try all means and methods t wake u up.
i think we spent at least 30min outside ur house, camping and shouting and bombarding ur house phone with millions of calls.
and u finally wake up.
by then i was alr wad.? 3 plus.?
i know the friendship is genuine, but this is taking its toll on me.
i really do not understand how u can make no effort at all to reply any single one of my msges or at least call t at least inform me if smth has corped up that u cant make it.
hai.
ginger mountain easy change.

happy birthday, my friend.

2007-09-06T12:08:00.000+08:00

happy birthday.
this time 3 years ago i would say we were pretty close friends.
so sad so many things had to happen, and now we dont even say hi t each other when we see each other on the bus.
i wonder if i'll still see you on the bus when i go t sch next sem.
once again part of me wish i'll see you, t re-confirm whatever i think, yet part of me just wish i'll never ever bump into you again.
on bus, in sch, or wherever else.
i just hope if we do bump into each other again, there wouldnt be this awkward silence and mutual understanding that we shouldnt even say hi or have any form or eye contact, but instead pretend we didnt see each other, and do not know of each other's presence at that point of time.
i think for the 5-6 mnths after sch reopens, i'll know.

i miss school.

2007-09-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

man, i miss school.
not TP, but TAS.
actually there's nothing much in TAS, but somehow i just miss TAS.
i miss hanging out with all the people, i miss attending LnR and ROM lectures.
today's wednesday, we're supposed to have LnR lecture. hai.
can we have beach day soon.?
how about the last friday before sch reopens.? (((=

i just notified all the class raps t get back to me asap t tell me who's going for our class chalet.
i need t start planning fast.
so many things to plan.

i read the 1st stoory from the book qingyun lent me.
and i cried like some loser.
now my eyes are super tired.
damn.

meeting reen for the first time since dunno when.
like 4 mnths i think.?
im still thinking where we can go to thou.! (=

spending money like water.

2007-09-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

according t an aritcle about being happy i read a couple of week ago, a happy person is someone who is able to channel away negative thoughts.
i guess im not a happy person since i wasnt able to channel away my negative thoughts today.
i think i need help.
of course not everyone who offers help will help eventually, but thanks for offering anyway.

no interview.
watched rat with ari, shane, james, and xavier.
ok the animation was super good.
but i think i just cant really appreciate anination or cartoon la.
its like no human touch.
nice story line thou.!

pool-ed with shane linus and xavier.
then Kar Mun and yili came t join shane, linus and myself to watch no reservations.
i thought i was a better movie as compared t rat.
but because its like real humans acting.
and its a romantic comedy. my fav genre.
anyway the movie was pretty nice, thou predictable once again.
quite light hearted but then again not so, ok what and i talking.
anyway the lil' girl's a damn good actor la.
less than 15min into the movie i alr had tears, the last part at the cemetery was the last straw.
i held back damn long but eventually one tear fell.
not bad alr ok, just one tear.
dinner at kenny rogers after tt, wa lao their macaroni cheese is damn nice la.
but too much of it makes you sick.

and so i still din get a job.

pls dont say things that you wont do eventually, even if it isnt a promise.
i was a bastard today.

TA DAH.!

2007-09-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

cant even enough of singing, seriously.
not that i sing very well, but singing is something i certainly wish i had more talent in, and something i wish a can do better.
esp since im kinda having an infatuation for xiao jing teng, there isnt anyone who's as cute and good a singer as he is right now, in my eyes at least. (((=

i was just about t say i finished watching almost of all the videos on youtube with xiao jing teng singing different songs.
then i decided t go look again and guess what.?!
i found a new more exciting sheng key one.!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=AmN6ELr83IY
seriously ar, this guy is AMAZING.
pls go watch and check out his vocals man.
geez, i got so many of his videos in my favourites i think its time t create a folder for all his videos. lol.
rock on.! (=

ever thought everything in the world seems contradicting.?
and it doesnt mean that by treating someone well you're gonna get back the same treatment.
sometimes people just aint appreciative.
well i guess that's just the way it is.
there ain't gonna pity parties thrown for each other, you've just gotta live wit' it, as much as u're filled with indignation.
you know, i'd rather be on the receiving end of not being appreciated, than to be the one not appreciating others.
cause i know how sucky it feels like, and i dont want ppl to feel sucky because of me.
but some things just isnt within our control, just let nature take its course ba.

surprise surprise surprise.!

2007-09-02T22:32:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHAT I FOUND IN MY KITCHEN TODAY.?!

YES.! QUITE UNBELIEVABLE, BUT ITS PAPADUM.!
MADRAS PAPADUM (FRES'H 'N' CRISPY) LOL.!!!

HERE'S HOW IT LOOKS LIKE.!
SO I DECIDED TO MAKE SOME FOR MY FAMILY.

TA DAH.! ENDING RESULT.! NICE CRISPY PAPADUM.!
IT'S SO NICE AND CRISPY ALL'S FINISHED ALREADY.!

boring.

2007-09-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

i think my dad's memory is failing him.
he couldnt even rmb which stoorey he parked his car ar.
this is quite serious considering how impt the car is t him.
anyway i think he's still damn strong.
cause tt day we went t carry a 29 inch tv from my aunt hse and he could carry it on his own.?
when the two of us carry i alr think it was super heavy, but he couldt carry it on his own.
anyway my dad and i are going for squash and badminton during the hols, hopefully i can finally beat in.
badminton maybe got chance, squash is totally no chance. maybe when he's 50 i'll beat him in both ba.

chilli crabs at changi village for dinner.
i think my mum was in a super good mood cause she say ok when my bro asked for sharks fin.
but it wasnt too ex la, $25 only.
im not gonna share beer with my mum anymore because she always drink abit, like less than 3/4 glass and expect me t finish the rest.

yes.!
finally teo heng tmr.! (((=
ok actually the last time i sang was study week but it seems so long ago. lol.
its the original 7 from 1K05 tmr.
havent heard siliang, grace, and laura's singing for a long long time.
qiqi and cas' too actually.

i realised the importance of a pvt blog. hah.

quick update.

2007-09-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

half time of man u vs sunderland match.
what's wrong with keano man, check out his welcome-to-macdonald's tie.

ok so there was a record number of tourist coming into singapore for a month this year, july.
close to 1 million, then we're very close to meeting our 10.5 million tourists target this yr.
all the tourism news.
seriously, our industry may be up-and-coming, but its a not-so-unknown secret that its gonna be super competitive right.?
geez.

13 going 30 was quite a nice show.!
the lead guy was the one who acted in just like heaven. (((=
quite predictable, but still it was touching.
i think seriously man, most of the time the romance movies i watch i will know what's the next step, but still i will cry and say awww, so sweet.

hazel tan xi chun is gonna get up a blog.!
GASP EVERYBODY.! GASP.!

my back's aching so badly, but i dont know why its aching.
it not really the back, like the back side of my right ribs.
super pain.

alright, back to the match.

HOLIDAYS.!

2007-09-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

yes.! today is officially 1st of sept.!
beginning of hols.!
i'm looking forward t working cause i think its gonna be very fun working with fnb ppl, they're usually very jian and san ba.
and i'm looking forward t reaping the rewards of working, money. (((=

i can finally buy lyn and reen's bdae pressie.
sorry it was belated for so long, i wasnt in the right financial situation.
and then i can save up for xinny and wenny's bdae.!
and i can use the money t go as many kbox as i want, and maybe even go for a holiday.
i love the feeling of paying for stuffs on your own, havent had tt feeling for a long time.
and im gonna cherish that feeling very soon. (=

LnR paper was kinda bad.
but i know i din put in effort so i cant say much abt it.
went t town then manhatthan's fish mrkt.
super nice, i love their rice and garlic butter sauce. one word, heavenly.
then went t meet e others then went DQ at wheelock t chill.
took cab home with shane and Kar Mun t the east.
then took 53 from there and cabbed home.
just din feel like going home early, like always.
cabbing with shane and Kar Mun was super fun, couldnt stop laughing la.
all the bullshit and singing and disgusting voices. lol.
i guess tt cab ride was the best thing that happened the whole day.

triple thanks to xinny for ur ai xing donuts.!
very sweet, but still very nice. haha.

i dunno why i feel so _______
i dunno what word t use t describe also.

HERE'S FOR U.! =DDD

2007-08-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

The person who tagged you is:

LAU YING WEN aka WENNY.

Your relationship with her is:

BFF! to both of us. (=

Your 5 impressions of WENNY! (:

1. super pro chinese, esp after H2 chinese. haha.!

2. someone who's willing to listen to what others have to say, and very open to criticism.

3. someone who's mouth is becoming increasingly 贱, and i hope it gets more and more 贱. LOL

4. someone who even thou dont have a very humerous nature, never fail to make me laugh, or smile to myself when i think about the things she said.

5. one of my most geniue friends ever, maybe cause we went tru quite a lot.

The most memorable thing she had done for you:

haha, too many. really. i think the MOST memorable was the big part u played in helping me improve my temper during lower sec days. how you always encourage and help me tru those times. permanent mark in my life alr. (((=

!The most memorable words she had said to you :

encouragements during lower sec days.

If he/ she becomes your lover,you will:

i cant have someone i know so well alr to be my lover la, not fun alr. but i think every day will be super high. lol.

If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:

erm, give all her attention to me, not on heng heng or her eye candy. haha.!

If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:

haha. i think i will cry and die instantly too.!

If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

i got tgt with heng heng.? LOL.!!! impossible right, that's why we will nvr become enemies. lol.

The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:

well, i wanna think of a nice way to celebrate her bdae, but its gonna be belated cause she'll be having her A's. and it has to be super special. and also to pray hard that she does well for her A's. (((=

Your overall impression of him/ her is:

one of my most geniue friends, and a friend to stay. BFF, period.

good afternoon.! (=

2007-08-30T14:42:00.000+08:00

always have so many songs tt i wanna sing when i go K.
but in the end i always never sing, instead i keep singing the same few songs.
anyway, old songs are really nice.
so many evergreens.
was kinda sick of all the songs i've been listening to lately, so i wenta listen t listen to songs from this folder named "SUPER NICE songs from Kar Mun".
now i'm hooked on eagles' desperado, and beatles' hey jude.
desperado's quite hard t sing thou, but i'm gonna pray real hard Teo Heng has that song.

and xiao jing teng is really talented, his yao zhi is pretty special.
everyone pls go watch xiao jing teng on da xiao ai chi, super funny i was laughing out loud on so many occasions.
xiao s and da s are really really excellent hosts man.
and xiao jing teng is sooo shy he's so damn cute. haha.!
here's the link, make sure you watch.! its hilarious.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nZ7p5fB23P8

alrights, off to sleep/study.

2007-08-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

summary of today : sleep finish eat, eat finish sleep.
cannot take it, super tired man.
everytime after i wake up its time for a meal. lol.
feel so bad.

anyways.!
7 o'clock show is super funny, because the malaysian accent is really bth.
i was laughing at almost every sentence la.
and the 8.30 show was like a travel show on jeju island.
make me feel like watching my girl again la.! hai.
and they kept singing the song song hye-go sang in full house.
but i dont really feel like watching full house again thou.
but i'll try to watch a couple of dramas during the hols.! (=

i just realised there's no alcohol at home for consumption.
the beer in the fridge is alr more than 6 mnths pass brew date.
so its gonna taste really bad.
no bacardi or vodka.
and i cant open the whiskey.
seriously, i'm going for a liquid diet after my bdae.
anyone wanna go with me.? (((=
but not those kinda that get high after one drink ok.!
haha.

thanks joan.

2007-08-29T00:02:00.001+08:00

1. A random guy/girl comes up to youand says 'hey babe.' you say:-
Erm.?
2. what was the last thing you put inyour mouth?-
Toothbrush.?
3. what does your last text messagesays?-
Kar Mun: Turning in! Night! :) Take care.
4. the last song you listened to?-
J.T.'s Lovestoned. (((=
5. what's irritating you this verymoment?-
The fact that i'm trying v hard to keep my eyes from closing.?
6. where is the rest of your familyright now?-
All sleeping alr la. wad time alr sia.
7. what did you do yesterday?-
now's 12.22am so i had ROM paper yest, watched hairspray, and chilled at starbucks and Kar Mun's place.
8. pick a scar on your body, how'd youget it?-
Fell during training.
10. what do you want to do when you getout of high school/college?-
work first, then see if i want to continue my education.
11. how old is your mom?-
44 this year.!
12. are you signed onto MSN?-
yes i am.
14. who's your most religious friend?-
ariel.?
16. if you could change your name toanything what would it be?-
I like my name the way it is
17. what's the best compliment someonehas given you?-
áll compliments are nice.
18. what do you hate most about yourschool?-
only mensa has nice food.?
19. miss someone?-
Yeaps.
20. last time you took a plane ?-
i think was primary 4 or smth.
21. how many times a day do you loginto myspace?-
Zero.
22. last profile you went into?-
no my space wad. how to.?
23. what's the first thing you would do with five million bucks?-
give 1 million to each parent.
24. do you like this survey so far?-
neutral.?
25. who's the fourth person on your featuredfriends, and why?-
Sensitive qns. not gonna ans.
26. how would you react if numbersthree, six, and eight on your topfriends all of a sudden hated you?-
cry la, duh. but i'll find out why.
27. next thing you'll spend money on?-
lemme guess, should be tmr's lunch lol.
28. what's one toy you remember havingin the 90's?-
masak masak.?
29. if you had a son what would youname him?-
wind.
30. look through the nearest window,what do you see?-
tall HDB by the back.A Block of flat.
31. what's does your mousepad looklike?-
black.? its some razor mouse pad that cost $30.?
32. who's someone you drifted fromthat you wish you were closer?-
samantha.
33. which of your friends do you arguewith most?-
currently Kar Mun. forever itterating me.
35. what's your dream job?-
as long as im surrounded by ang mohs. (=
36. who's the last person that you feltwas stalking you?-
huh.? no have.
37. if you could have any car whatwould it be?-
that lexus rx300 or smth la. cant rmb. black colour.
38. what's your favorite breakfastfood?-
banana nut crunch. (=
39. how do you like your eggs?-
Sunny side up or scrambled.
41. how about a tattoo?-
sure.! but not now.
42. what mood are you in?-
SUPER DUPER SLEEPY.
43. what's a movie you want to see in the theatres?-
secret. ok v long alr but i wanna watch la.!
44. if you had to live somewhere elsewhere would it be?-
a sub urban place near the beach.
45. what's the last four numbers ofyour phone number?-
1162
46. how many hours did you sleep forlast night?-
ZERO.!
.47. where will your next car ride beto?-
maybe my aunt's house.
48. if you could live in any tv show?-
one tree hill. (=
49. what video game do you play mostoften?-
dota.?
50. what are you wearing right now?-
sleevless shirt and shorts.

worn out.

2007-08-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

first and foremost.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOREEN TAN PEI ZHEN.! (((=

ok, the most dreadful paper ROM is finally over.
so i calculated and i most prob will be able to maintain my C+.
in any case its either a C+ or a C, likewise for AM.
so i have to work extra hard for LnR to get an A.
erm, i dont think i will thou cause im in holiday mood alr.

well after the paper went to watch hairspray with 10 other ppl.
quite nice, its a musical-romantic-comedy.
worth watching, except john travolta as drag really is kinda sick.

i think white girls can never have a voice more powerful than that of a black girl. yes.
just look at whitney houston, period.

chilled at starbucks till 6, then followed Kar Mun, supposed to go home but just didnt feel like heading home so early even thou i was darn tired.
walked to her hse from pasir ris interchange.
then chilled at her hse, good chat as usual.
went home at 10 and had trouble keeping myself awake la.
ok i'm super tired not cause i didnt sleep at all, but im thinking of playing dota.
see how la.

PS:
saying the initials of vulgarities such as TL, SB, HGG, is also considered swearing.
end of stoory.

2007-08-28T04:35:00.000+08:00

woo, less than 5 hours to ROM paper.
and im only studying those 6 major topics.
but im not done with any yet.
not hong gan then there's no other word to describe alr.
i cant believe im staying up all night man, so unlike me.
usually i would just heck and go to sleep alr la.
all the best peeps.!

2007-08-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

ROM made me do this.
HONG GAN ALREADY LA.!
ok bye.

2007-08-27T02:40:00.001+08:00

oh ya.!
manchester united finally won.!
thanks to a wonder stirke by the new boy nani.
geez, portuguese talents these days.
at least if i dont do well for AM i wont be THAT disappointed. LOL.
excuses.

before i go to sleep.

2007-08-27T02:31:00.000+08:00

exactly 7 hours to AM paper.
and í have not even touched lect 8-10. haha.!
i'm such a genius man.
and guess what.? i dont even have lect 10.

anyway i'm just online to check what's my seat number. lol.

lyn:
dont think too much k.?
everything will go well.
get some sleep, u need it badly.
pst, the emo guy was still at the void deck after i sent u home. haha.!

=/

2007-08-26T20:08:00.000+08:00

geez, i've only studied till AM lect 4.?
ok make that half way tru lect 4.
and guess what.?
i havent even started on ROM.
KUDOS.!
and there's man u match at eleven.!
damn.
thou i said i'm not gonna watch anymore, somehow i got this strong feeling man u's gonna win tonight.
i think in the end i'll turn out to be the loser who does badly for exams.
so much so for wanting to do well this sem. =/
sucha disappointment, again.

FNS. (=

2007-08-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

i'm prob gonna close this blog.
but only after exams.
after i start working, and begin my journey of becoming financially independent.
but of course i'll still keep the account.
prob time to use a new gmail addy, this acc is after all the email addy i set up when i joined nuskin.
and now im no longer associated with them, i wanna stop using it.
a fresh new blog to a fresh new journey in less than 14 days time.
in the meantime u guys can start bombarding me with suggestions of a new URL.!

happy people- it's partly in your genes.

2007-08-25T11:07:00.000+08:00

title of this article in page 2 of life! today.

"people's ability to be an agent, to act on behalf of what matters to them, is fundamental"
Dr Alkire on the imporance of having choices.

what if there are too many things that matters to you, and in doing something that matters to you, you'll have to forgo something elses that matters as well.?
guess it's just which one matters more importantly to you right.?

if people say money can't buy happiness, they're only partially right.
how often have u heard people saying this.?
that money can't buy happiness.
the most impt thing is _________ (fill in what ever corny stuffs u wan).
but i know of many people who are happy because they just bought an new shirt, new whatever and whatever.
can u buy whatever you want to make urself happy without money.? NO.

ask yourself.
are you always optimistic about your future. yes or no.?
do you fell feel you are free to decide for yourself how you live my life. yes or no.?

i cant say yes to both questions at every point in my life.
sometimes its just everything's sort of pre-planned for you, its like once you're born it has been pre-programmed in you.
sometimes i feel im in sucha situation, where the road has been set, and that you just have to walk down that road, like it or not. =/

anyway, which one matters more to you.?
right now i'm going back to sleep cause i dont want to take our whatever AM stuffs i have to study.
which is like lect 1 to lect 10. -_-
pray for me ppl.
nights.!

PIC CHAS AS PROMISED.! (=

2007-08-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

(((=
FACE THE OTHER WAY PLEASE.!
WENNY AND I
XINNY AND I

THE CLIQUE. (=

2007-08-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY GOT TO SEE THE CLIQUE TODAY.!
i think the last time i met all of them tgt was 2 mnths ago.
2 mnths lei.! unbelievable.

xinny, wenny and i went J8 ajisen for dinner.
I'M THE BITCH.! :'-( LOL.!!!
linny only joined us a little later but she din eat.
and she didnt join us for liquid kitchen either, went home for dinner instead.

anyway zong dian is singapore fnb hiring A LOT of foreign workers now adays man.!
this waitress at ajisen couldnt seem to understand our order no matter how we say or point at the pic-cha.
then she said soorrry worst than the way shane says la.!
wa cannot take it man.!
wenny kept on imitating her.! haha.!
then at LK, this china woman aka cheena biang according to wenny, was the waitress la.
obviously cannot speak eng well, we speak to her in chinese la.!
then she still wanna convert to eng sia.! wa kao, teaching us lesson ar.?
order whatever drink she also dunno one lor.
say she's new here, can we point to her. -_-
here's the real zong dian, we wanna take foto.
so we asked her to take for us, then tell her which button to press.
then we were joking like wait she dunno which one to press even cause she like super song.
then guess what.?
she wan take picture of us, then she point the lense to her face lei.!
then she ask us issit look into the lense.
OMG.! i cannot believe it.
wenny have to stop taking foto for awhile to finish laughing la.!
haha.! BTH.!

anyway did loads of catching up with xinny and wenny.
but most of the time i was talking cause my stories are more bing bao la, as always. lol.!
meet up soon again.! (((=

accounts was alright la.
got hope for A, but small hope.
haha. wouldnt mind a B+ actually.

pool-ed with shane and warren.
nice.

AREYOU READY.?

2007-08-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

i think studying for ROM is crazy.
even at a condusive place like Kar Mun's house i wasnt able to study well.
but then again i think, the past few days was good because i was doing accounts.
i think im fated to do sums and calculations la.
anyway memorising for ROM kills la.

anyway so proud of you Kar Mun.!
from dunno anything about accrued to becoming so "fluent" and good at it, that it comes so naturally.
kudos to you for practising 4 past year papers.!
i know u'll do well.

anyway studying at Kar Mun's house was fun.
always fun with Kar Mun around.
but studying could have been a lil' more efficciieeenntt. LOL.
but i sweared a lot at her house. geez.!

i think im gonna quit watching soccer man.
wth man u cant win, now eng cant win either.
seriously, dont know wth they're doing.

i'm supposed to be confident about my accounts but i cant help feeling i wont get an A.
cause i didnt touch accounts at all for the whole day except Kar Mun's questions.?
pls let me get an A for tmr's paper.!
all the best to everyone else taking the paper, esp ariel, hazel, busty, qiqi, Kar Mun, matt, xavier, james. (just ppl i've studied with la. qiqi's diff thou)

i wish friendster can increase the capacity for the number of feature friends you can have.

1 more day to first paper. hai.

2007-08-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

The person who tagged you is:
Darling Ariel. (=

Your relationship with her is:
Friend Friend. (=

Your 5 impressions of her:
1. Blur.
2. Holy.
3. VERY huggable.
4. Someone whom i can really talk to.
5. Bimbotic, LIKE DUH.? this should be first on the list huh.?

The most memorable thing he had done for you:
Listening, giving me her views, gave me a hugg when i needed it most. (=

If he/ she becomes your lover,you will:
Die very soon because of her blur-ness.? LOL.

If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
The question is IF, so i hope she can be a little, just a LITTLE dirty minded.? LOL.! ok maybe i should say not too innocent.

If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
Not know what to do.?

If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
I dont think this will ever happen.

The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Let her know more about what the outside world is.?

Your overall impression of him/ her is:
Friend Friend who needs to know more about the dark side of the world.?
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

The person who tagged you is:
Desmond brudder.

Your relationship with him:
He's my brudder.

Your 5 impressions of him:
1. Immortality.
2. Be it HOLY EXERCISE or HOLEY EXERCISE
3. Very helpful.
4. Always produce good quality project work.
5. Brudderly.

The most memorable thing he had done for you:
Lemme think... Erm, help me with project.?

If he become your lover:
NO HOLEY EXERCISE PLEASE.

If he/ she becomes your lover, things they have to improve on will be:
NO HOLEY EXERCISE AGAIN PLEASE.

If they become your enemy, you will:
Be sad cause i lost a brudder.

If they become your enemy, the reason will be:
Erm, cause we're no longer brudders.?

The most desired thing you want to do for them now is:
Pray hard he'll do well for his exams to break his karma.

Your overall impression of them is:
Immortality & HELL LOT OF EXERCISES.! ;-)
----------------------------------------------------------------------------

The person who tagged you is:
Shane

Your relationship with him is:
Beach friend.

Your 5 impressions of him:
1. Stoory, soorry, coomputer.? LOL.
2. Funny.
3. Darty.
4. Waste money for going carnivore.
5. PCC king.?

lThe most memorable thing he had done for you:
Ok this is tough. Can't think of any lei.! Did a nice one-two with me in rugby and helped linus score.?

The most memorable words he had said to you:
We treat you as a guy wad. (quite sad but it is the most memorable.)

If he becomes your lover, you will:
Ask him not to PCC too often.?

If she becomes your lover, things he has to improve on will be:
PCC less pls.

If he becomes your enemy, you will:
Be very afraid cause he might use his cum to do dmg since he had like so much of it. LOL damn sick.

If he becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
PCCs too much la, DUH.?!

The most desired thing you want to do for him now is:
Get him to take care and bring him chee cheong fun if when i can.?

Your overall impression of him is:
PCC KING. LOL.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

thanks to matthias goh, i woke up at 9am this morning when iset my alarm at 10.30am.
which meant i cannot get back to sleep.
so i decided to do past yr paper for accs.
well, most of the calculation qns i can do, but the theory qns i really cannot do.
so my conclusion is that A i not easy to get, i'm just praying hard i'll do just enough to get an A.
and last 3 topics are pretty impt judging from past yr paper.

met ari at chomp chomp bus stop and we went over to SR country club to mug.
super nice environment, the pool is super nice.
ok its just an ordinary pool, but its like nobody using so u can swim laps without stupid idiot who prefers to swim the breadth and blk your way.
but ariel says she's shy, and she doesnt dare to swim with us. -_-
so she got a "don't worry we wont touch you + perverted lob-sided smile" from Kar Mun tru text. haha.!

matt, james, and xavier joined us after awhile to study.
ok conclusion is everyone is facing problems with lect 7 for accounts.
and i've been repeating lect 7 for 3rd consecutive day to different ppl, its stuck it my head permenantly.
on my dead bed i'll still be saying "accrued revenue dah dah dah.."

ariel left for clark quay at 6.30.
rest of us left at 6.50.?
was still deciding if we wanna go kbox cause i really gt the urge to go la.
went to chomp chomp for dinner and decided to go amk for K-pool.
quite sad, but still its ok.

so when we reached amk, this girl from kbox was distributing flyers.
and she said if we 3 ppl go she'll only charge 2 ppl's charge.
SUPER TEMPTING.
but matt say we cannot pang seh him so we went Kpool. )=
but we were destined to go Kbox because they kept playing songs james and i always sing when we go Kbox at Kpool la.
so we decided to leave after less than an hour, matt went off with his friend.
james, xavier and i went Kbox.
haha.!

well we sang until we cannot sing anymore.
my voice was like gone after i biao hui jia, ming tian jian, wo xiang xing, ting hai, and ji de.
anyway, james can sing higher than me la wth.!
i cant believe he sang wo yao kuai le, and wo xiang xing.
geez.! unbelievable, he finally mastered head voice. i kowtow to him.

decided to leave at 12.30 cause we cannot sing anymore, and james and i didnt wanan go home too late.

i would say today's study session summed up my accounts.
but i dont think i studied alot.
managed to memorise all 14 of the differences between hotel and resort FINALLY.!

i must study hard tmr and do a final revision for accounts to make sure i get my A la.

30 more min to eng's match so i guess since i still feel fresh im gonna stay up to watch.

i think i like the smell of my fingers when i smoke.

i think i should try as much as possible not to judge, because more often than not what i thought ppl are like, do not turn out to be true. be it good or bad. HAH.

Courtesy of Kar Mun.

2007-08-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

List out the top 5 presents you wish for (not in order of importance):
1. Average GPA 3 after this sem's paper.
2. To be able to see xinny, linny, and wenny ASAP.
3. Ronaldo Jersey.
4. Manchester United to start winning.
5. Watches.

Answer the following questions:

The person who tagged you is:
Kar Mun.

Your relationship with her is:
Friend Friend. (=

Your 5 impressions of Kar Mun:
1. Hilarious.
2. Witty.
3. Darty Minded.
4. Physical
5. Referent Power.

The most memorable thing she had done for you:
Managed to convince me to stop smooking, which lasted for a month, sorry it only last one month.

The most memorable words she had said to you :
Quite a lot lei. Just this random one: your good night always very cold. try nights.! huggs.! take care.!

If he/ she becomes your lover,you will:
Break up immediately.? Know her too much more than how much i want to know if its my lover.?

If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
Stop working those fingers.? Kidding. Erm, this is tough. Allow me to eat in your room.? haha.

If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
Be very sad.?

If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
Either one of us told a third party what we promised not to say i guess.?

The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Bring Chee Cheong Fun for her if she still has a craving.

Your overall impression of him/ her is:
Friend Friend. (((=

How do you think people around you will feel about you?
Loud, sporty, tomboy, bad tempered.? (did i answer the qns.?)

The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is /are:
I guess i'm pretty easy to get along with.?

On the contrary, the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
Temper, period.

The most ideal person you want to be is:
Myself, with a better temper, straighter shoulders and no white hair.?

For people that like and care for you, say something to them:
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Pass this quiz to 10 people
1. Kar Mun.
2. Jasmine Gan aka toilet roll friend no.1.
3. Xinny. (((= (can you faster finish you exams.?)
4. Ariel. (Keep the ties strong, huggs.)
5. Desmond Brudder.
6. Joan Seng neigh.
7. Linny. (((=
8. Wenny. (((= AJISEN.!
9. D.J. Know you won't be reading, but still.
10. Lyn.

Who is No. 6 having a relationship with? Jodin

Is No. 9 a female or male? Male.

If No. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? Haha, definitely not.

How about No. 8 and 5? Hard to say, yes and no.

What is No. 2 studying about? Leisure & Resort Management!

When was the last time you had a chat with No.3? The week before. )=

What kind of music band does No. 8 like? Lily Allen, Angela Zhang, Mayday. correct.? (=

No. 1 has any siblings? Yes, "do you like guys in uniform", and "my sister look like ang moh when she was young right.? so cute.!"

Will you woo No. 3? I i were a guy, hell yea. But i'll have to be so much more mature than you.

How about No. 7? Only if im at least 1.8m.

Is No. 4 single? Yes, will be for some time.

What's the surname of No. 5? Lim.

What's the name of No. 10? Carolyn Ong Tze Yee (or ong cb, haha.! i still rmb.!)

What's the hobby of No. 4? Hmm, listening to happy songs and going gaga over how well photoshop works.?

Do No.5 and 9 get along well? Don't know each other, but i don't think they'll got along very well.

Where is No. 2 studying at? Temasek Poly!

Talk something casually about No. 1? Hilarious.

Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8? Got a strong one here.! (=

Where does No. 9 live at? Toa Payoh Lorong 4, i still remember.

What colour does No. 4 likes? Green and Grey. correct.?

Are No. 5 and 1 best friends? No such thing as best friends for No. 1, so no.

Does No. 7 like No. 2? Don't even know each other.

How do you get to know No. 2? This year at Sentosa.

Does No. 1 have any pets? Snowy the botak.

Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world? Will be when she dresses up.

FINALLY.!
MAN I TOOK 45 MIN TO DO THIS.
I WONDER WHY I EVEN VOLUNTEERED TO BE PART OF STOP SWEARING CAMPAIGN.
DAMN DAMN DAMN.!
damn's not a bad word so its gonna be my power word, tgt with wa lao.?
pathetic, yes.
off to some much needed sleep.!

2007-08-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

just realised i haven taken a lot photos with xinny and wenny and linny. )=

dead beat.

2007-08-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

well its really hard not to swear man.
but i'm trying v hard.
i used the f word twice today thou. )=
but im gonna forgive myself because im freakin tired, both mentally and physically.

hazel and busty came over t my hse for accs.
hazel sort of bombarded me with qns from lect 7 and more qns from lect 7. -_-
i think lect 7 is the one giving everyone trouble huh.?
busty just started reading tru lect notes on her own starting from lect 1. -_-
anyway studying session finally ended at 5.50.?
uber tired alr.

studying agn with ariel tmr.
i'm gonna have to do accs again cause i din manage to do much today.
and i need my A badly to help pull my ROM and AM grades up.
well peeps, AM coursework grades are up btw.

lyn:
u can do it.!
devote yourself.!
come on.! (((=
jia yous.!

first official day of study week.?

2007-08-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

well, i think i should stop swearing man.
regardless if im typing or saying or actions la obviously.
so stop swearing campaign is gonna start now.

well even though the world is downright superficial, as long as the people who mean a lot to you aren't, then we shouldn't care less.
this is so true, thanks ari. (=

well i managed to study lect 6 to lect 11 of accounts today at Kar Mun's house.
i know if i were to study alone at home i would never have been able to finish those la.
so i would consider today's study session productive. (((=
just felt kinda bad cause i was supposed to teach Kar Mun but i dont think she learnt anything from me.
yea.

went for hei sushi at white sands for their buffet at 3.!
well, so sad there was only ONE serving of the fried salmon slices. )))=
i've been wanting to eat like 4 plates of that since last night.
and i regretted not bringing a plastic bag there to store rice, but anyway i think their selection are kinda pathetic.
cause we stopped eating not because we're full, but cause we're kinda sick of eating the same stuff.
Kar Mun was acting like a host of some food show, hilarious.

well, apparently james, matt and xavier were unable to study while at changi airport, so they decided to come find us.
so we went arcade and played for awhile.
they tried to physco us to not continue studying but we're strong enough mentally to say "NO, WE'RE GONNA STUDY.!"
lol ok that was "dramatified", be we went back to Kar Mun's house to study in the end. (((=

anyway i think Mr Low seriously need to update our AM coursework grades fast.
wth he was supposed to update over the weekends but it still isnt up now la.!
we need to plan our studying you know mister.!
and who's the one telling us we should start early.?
it doesnt really help that ur revision lecture was a total waste of time.

ok so im left with last 2 lects for accs.
hopefully i'll be able to complete them before i sleep, which i dont think i will, cause im kinda tired alr and i need to wake up at 11.
hazel and busty (GASP, its a miracle.!) are gonna come to my hse tmr to do accounts.!

anyway this is the best study week ever cause i'm gonna be done with one subject on the 4th day of study week when i dont even study until the day before during the past two study weeks la.
so proud of myself, anyway grades are like increasingly impt to me now.
for all the reasons u can name.

to shane: take care. (=

drab.

2007-08-19T19:59:00.000+08:00

man the first two days after end of sch, TAS to be exact was bad.
its different this time because there won't be any more sch after the end of the weekend.
even monday was always a lousy day starting with a 9am tutorial, i really don't mind if there was an 8am tutorial tmr.

well, here's a summary of what i've studied these two days.
written mindmpas for 3 ROM lects.
read tru first 2 lects for accs.
even thou its really pathetic, its good enough for someone who had never studied on the first day of study break. (=
i just hope tmr's study session with Kar Mun's gonna be productive.

the rain over these two days prevented me from playing bball, or go swimming.
and it made me not feel like stepping out of the house but just hide under my blanket and fall back to sleep.
which is why im even more proud i managed to study, and not just sleep.

only consolation for fun i had was waching JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE'S lovestoned video on youtube.
man that's one hell of a hot dude.
i love his bone structure and his facial hair la.! so sexy.
sleek, and deft are the only two words i have to describe the way he moves.
hai, so hot.
check out this video, super hot esp when he grabs his arse.
so provocative. but i like. ;-)
should check out the lyrics too. (((=
here's a video for you people out there mugging.

manchester derby at 8.30.!
can manchester united finally put a win in the bag.?
i hope so.
adious.

goodbye TAS

2007-08-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

well how i felt when i went for school today, and how i felt when i left school today was two extreme ends of happiness and sadness.
obviously the former being happiness, and the latter being sadness.
i felt like such a sadist (LOL) when i left sch today.

anyway i was in a really good mood yest.
so i decided to be a nice person and bring chee cheong fun from my mum's stall for friends.
cause i also feel guilty that after knowing casper and qiqi for one and a half year they havent tried my mum's food. lol.
so yea, i bought more for more people la.
then i was super early dunno y even though i already planned to go chinatown to buy the tang yuan that i owed Kar Mun, still feel bad abt it ok.!
but i was like 30min early.

anyway it was raining badly the whole day la.
sort of sums up the gloomy mood in TAS.
even though everyone was all smiles, like no one actually appeared super sad to leave TAS, but we all know that we do not wish to leave TAS.
there was taboo and the farewell thingy at F-2-SR2.
hai so sad la the video was.
and i think ari did and excellent job with the video. you rock.! (((=

when desmond gave his speech, tears were already welling up in my eyes.
but i managed to not let it like flow down my cheeks.
if one drop flow then more will follow.
im so gonna miss TAS, and the beach people la.
not as if we wont see each other next sem, but as much as i wish to think we'll still hang out very often, i know we wont.

subway for dinner. yummy.!
oh ya, subway became like a weekly must for Kar Mun, ari and i. haha.
then headed to tcc at clark quay to chill.
taboo-ed again like hell.
super hilarious.
and geez even xavier joined us for awhile.
XAVIER LEI.! cannot imgaine right.? lol.

too bad last train was so early, would have loved to stayed a while longer to chill.

the world is superficial.
and this is becoming increasingly significant and obvious.
the world is a facade.
the world is pretentious.

2007-08-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

A C H E

Life is Beautiful.

2007-08-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

should i say i started the day well because for the first time in my entire life, i saw a hot guy in toa payoh.
can you imagine a hot guy in toa payoh.?
ask anyone and they would relate toa payoh with auntie, and auntie only.
right qiqi.?
why do you all always like to mock my hometown.? :'-(
well not only did he look good, he has a super nice body, and had a perfect tan.
geez, i cant believe i was at toa payoh mrt station.!
and he has super nice hands.! are you reading this lyn.? (((=
too bad it was too obvious if i try to take a foto. sorry.! my bad.
he alighted at somerset, just as i expected.
because he was carrying this super big bag, 99% he's heading down to california fitness.
more often than not fit guys with big bags will alight at somerset.
but anyways, i realised he has skinny legs for his too well build body.
a mistake 9 out of 10 guys make.
nice upper body but chicken legs.

AM tutorial was crap si-ri-ous-ly.
haha. i just wasnt in the mood to sit tru tutorial la.
so we got back our projects, but no grades.
geez, we havent even got back our field trip grades la.
wonder what's the secrecy about man.
and we totally have no idea what the grades of our coursework or any component of our coursework is.
hell yea.
but i was in a super good mood today so i didnt question.

and surprise surprise we got an A for LnR project.
to me it was pretty surprisingly, i thought the most we would have gotten a B+.
at least A for FnB was expected.
and i got a B for interview.
which meant my overall coursework grade for LnR is B+.
thank goodness man, i have to do extremely well for LnR to help pull my ROM up.
and i've gotta bank on accounts too.!
i need an A.!
what if i get D for AM coursework.?! GASP.!
not gonna think abt it now thou. haha.!

so we had superdog today for lunch.!
even though i'm like super broke but i just felt so good i should give myself a treat.
and ta dah i had fish burger and chilli cheese fries.
boy do i love their beef in the fries.
took mrt to SR with ariel.!
then walked from SR mrt station to her house, and then from her house to my house.
i think i havent walked so much in my life except for big walk. haha.!
and i only took 35min from the moment we said bye to my house.
pretty fast right.?
like so healthy. haha.

anyway we submitted our sentosa card today.
so sad la.
i really felt so sad my heart felt heavy in my chest.
and i could feel the sadness rippling and spreading tru my body esp when we stepped out of sentosa express.
man i'm really gonna miss TAS SO DAMN MUCH.!
oh no, i feel like crying now.
but today's a good day so i shalln't be a spoiler.
warren was all emo at superdog la.
haha. so many pattern.

anyway i think loser is like a super overused word.
and i think i use it super often, and i might hurt ppl unintentionally.
so ppl, if i do use loser for small things, pls gimme a gentle reminded to refrain from using that hurting word.
thanks.! (((=

what goes around, comes around.

2007-08-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

today was a happy day. hah.
so i got a c+ for my ROM course work but maggie said it was a v high one.
so i supposed im gonna work damn hard to get a B overall.

i was feeling so good today i decided to get some fags.
oh how i love fags so much.
and the feelin fags give.

LnR revision lect was slight better than AM.

bball with james, matt, cas, kenneth.
boring.
some weird indian ppl who dresses like elvis wanted to join us.
and he uses two hands to bounce the ball.!
kawaii neh.!
and he drank from my vater bottle.
without even asking.
like geez, what the fucking hell is his fucking problem.?
is there a drought it bagladash now.?
fuck him.

played ping pong for awhile.
sucks like hell.
but who cares.

took mrt to sk and then 89 to Kar Mun, satisfied.? (=
then took 88 to tpy, again.
went for a swim.
super long nvr swim so i kinda moved super slowly in the vater due to poor strokes.
but i managed to do 14 laps before i felt my calf was about to cramp.
so i decided i should stop.
i was too lazy to walk one big round so i climbed this high step.
then my calf cramped, badly. -_-

dinner was good.
spinach and cod. my fav.

i suppose i can consider today a good day since i played bball, ping pong, and swam.?
like so healthy.
hah. it has to be a good day.
end of day.

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it

ta-dah.! nice lyrics from the song. hah.

maybe i should stop blogging about my feelings on my blog.
this way the world will be so much more peaceful.

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

give me smth to believe in.

2007-08-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

i wish i can be objective and impartial.
i wish i can not think of only the bad reasons.
i wish i can think based on what i see now, and not bring in the past.
but isnt there always a reason why we do tys or past yr papers.?
doesnt the same reason apply when we're dealing with people relations.?

i guess i could take comfort that the true ones will stay, and i know for sure there are ppl who will never bastard me.
its the only thing i can take comfort in anyway.

my oh my, this is becoming a lil overused now.
however overused, i still think it stands true.
and that we should all take comfort in it.

i wonder if it even makes a difference to try.

i'm at karmy's...

2007-08-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

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2007-08-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

v tired.
havent studied one bit of bese. KUDOS.

anyway karmy.
if u can get over MP, u can get over this.
have faith in urself. (((=

itsa miracle.
is it.?
yes.? no.? maybe not.?

Live Bloggin Session (wootZ)

2007-08-13T10:43:00.000+08:00

ok im blogging in lab 3 now because brudder desmond asked me to.
we're doing a MASS, mass blog la.
what were u thinking karmy.? (((=

we cant do a mass orge with ariel here anyway. lol.

i dunno wad to blog because i dont have anything to.
and im only blogging cause stupid desmond insisted us to blog tgt.
which is uber lame.

and im so sad cause desmond doesnt rmb my bdae. ho ho ho.

ok since there's nth to blog.
im gonna say what happened the past 15 min in lab 3
so we came, oo CAME, into lab 3 and shane, jo, lena were alr here.
so we wanted to print AM tutorial but there's nth to print.
so des said since we gt nth to do we shall blog tgt.
apparently he loves his blog so much and he was telling me how popular he was this morning because everytime he visits his blog there are loads of taggies.
so yea, i think he's really popular if he wants to think that way. lol.

and we were making fun of shane's stooory and then he just defended himself badly and ended off with a NA BEH.
haha. damn farnie to hear it coming from shane.

and qingyun thinks im the dirtiest of the ppl here.
hell not.
shane is like far beyond my reach la.
and its only cause karmy isnt here that i seem to be the dirtiest.
common, she's the undisputed champion right.?
ok yea so everyone agrees.

i think im going for a job interview tmr.
today's cassified had an ad by carlton hotel.! (((=
geez, i need to get jobs fast.
best if i can work at 3 places, already got one confirmed. and its at tpy.
so convenient. (((=

ok time for lunch at koufu again.
adious.

thanks karmy.

2007-08-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

4 Jobs I've had in my life
1. Waitress.
2. cashier
3. helping my mum at her stall.?
4. some mlm thingy.

4 Movies I can watch over and over again
1. a walk to remember
2. mr and mrs smith
3. sweet november
4. the prestige

4 Places I've been on Vacation to (I'm going to cheat for this)
1. msia
2. indo
3. Thailand.
4. no more. so sad right.? hai.

4 Of my Favorite Dishes
1. sashimi duh.!?
2. alcohol flavoured cakes or sweet delights (even though i dont like sweet stuffs)
3. asparagus + scallop
4. i have to say this even though its not rly a dish. the milo my mum makes. (((= brilliant

4 Places I would like to Visit
1. maldives
2. san franciso
3. manchester
4. switzerland.
(i need to add another one, london with karmy only if im financially capable, really.!)

4 Most overused Words
1. haha
2. wa lao
3. fuck?
4. shurr up (karmy's influence. aint my fault)

4 TV Shows I love to Watch
1. my girl
2. CSI miami, LA, NY.
3. survivor
4. ANTM

4 Bloggers I am Tagging
1. wenny
2. xinny
3. linny
4. lyn

i decided karmy sounds so much more qing qie than jiawen.
so yea. im gonna stick to karmy. (((=

2007-08-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

one more hour to man u's first match of the season.! (((=
i hope they will be off to a flying start.
so glad sunderland won their first game.
i like them cause they're managed by roy keane.
an ex man u player. a legend.
and he looked so sleek in his armani suit. (((=

geez, i so tired but i HAVE to watch man u's match later.
and tutorial at 9 tmr. ugh.
oh my, next wk's gonna be the last wk at TAS.!
IM SO SO SO GONNA MISS TAS.!
hai so sad.

so many nice stuffs at TAS.
beach ppl esp.
best thing that happened to me TAS.?
undoubtedly getting to know ariel and karmy. (((((((((((=

im finally gonna cut my hair tmr.!

gonna chiong bese tmr night la.
so sian 25%. ugh.

i need entertainment.

2007-08-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

its damn hot right now.
and im sweating even though i had a cold water bath not long ago.

i dont know why i feeling so lousy now.
even though i got to chat with wenny and xinny today.

and i realised how many wrong steps i made in my life.
steps that i always thought were the right ones.
so many many wrong steps come to think of it.
well i know i shouldnt dwell on it, i guess i wont.
but its just that i'll think abt it once in awhile, and wonder why i took that step.
i wonder if given a choice to turn back time, will i.?
fuck that, i most prob wouldnt because everything else will change.
i should learn to take things easy, and move on.

does everyone have a motto in life.?
JiaWen's motto in life is to be happy.
i havent actually thought of what my motto is.

im in desperate need of entertainment.
but i guess i'll just go to sleep.
at 11 on a weekend.
geez, this screams NO LIFE.

ffts.?

2007-08-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

so mr casper heng was supposed to plan bball for today.
im supposed to receive an sms from him when i wake up informing me of the plans and details.
it came as no big surprise i didnt receive any sms from him.
first thought that came to my mind.?
"casper plan one of course liddat la, wad to expect.?"
no offence casper.! (=

so online he was complaining to me about how difficult it is to be a planner.
and he's not going to organise all these anymore.
look who's talking la.
i've been getting all this shit since primary sch la i think.
now u know how it feels like.
so pls dont tell me if whoever going then i go this kinda answer next time.
thank you.

(tu) says:
im not a planner
kiMm suburbs. says:
yea yea
kiMm suburbs. says:
wad are u then.?
(tu) says:
loser

so sad right.?
i think u're not a loser la.
u're just not used to organising and getting all the shit being an organiser. (=

and i had a REALLY REALLY nice chat with xinny online.!
so long nvr see her, and nvr chat with her la.!
i realised i have so much to update her about.!
and because u dont come online often i cant update u.!
and i can only see u after 31st august.!
by then i'll have even more to update u and the stories wont be as interesting alr.!
i really miss you alot.!!!
and pls stop thinking so much, and i know u're thinking too much so dont try to lie to me.
and i can only go drinking after 31st aug.
dont worry u can drink as much as you want after 31st aug.! (((=
miss you so much la.!!! hai.
so looking forward to september now.!

blah.

2007-08-11T13:58:00.000+08:00

movies at linus' house on national day with macho, shawnny depp, and JiaWen.
headed over to chomp chomp for dinner.
finally i get to eat the chicken wings. best i've ever tried.

then headed to JiaWen's house for stayover.
din talk much cause i was kinda tired.
and that loser fell asleep again before i did -_-
din really have a good sleep.
think i really cant sleep at her house la.

anyway i think i've been coming home too early too often.
which is why when i told my mum im going out she said why i go out for 2 consecutive days.
hmm, i think she thinks those days when i reach home late were spent doing projects.
cause she said "project do finish alr still come home so late"
hah, apparently not.

beach on friday was good and bad.
the sun was superb la, not too hot, but yet strong enough.
perfect for tanning and boy did JiaWen and i take advantage of it.
but quite few ppl la, one new comer though.
xavier. GASP right.? yea, hard to believe but yea.
poor shawnny depp got tricked into this super big hole that the ppl dug.
damn cute though.
took quite alot of pic-chas and ariel was all bimbo doing interviews la.

dinner at carnivore with macho, shawnny depp, shane, warren, mel, and JiaWen.
i thought the meat was a little substandard as compared to the first time i went.
and i din eat alot of my fav super red beef cause i was freaking full.
i love the cherry tomato + mozerella and their sauces. damn nice la.
they kept coming and coming, so fast we couldnt handle.
common even shane said there's too much meat on his plate.
taihong was sucha disappointment la.
he ate so little.
and si-ri-ous-ly shawnny depp can eat A LOT la.!
and we took a lot of pic-chas again.

went home not long after dinner with shane and JiaWen while the rest stayed to chill.
decided to take to boon keng then take 31 to tpy central.
bloody 31 took so damn long to come [ must be a seasoned one. ;-) ]

so many other fun stuffs to blog abt.
but just not in the mood to spice it up.
so sorry for the boring post.
bet JiaWen will do a good one though, so everyone can go check out her blog.
and i want all the pic-chas we took.!

i wonder if i treat ppl too good.
not everyone of course, ppl whom i care a lot about.
and i wonder if i trust ppl too easily.
i think i do.
yea. hah.

anyway its the end of the week alr.
i guess the date's never gonna come.
a few days before i had a little hope since there was still a couple more days before end of week.
but i guess now its more or less so, i wont be seeing you until who knows.

guo qing re.

2007-08-09T12:17:00.001+08:00

let you all see a funny picture i took today while waiting with char at the bus stop.
can you see anybody in the picture? cannot right? whahahah! damn funny pls. he is circled in red. not say i want to say him. his skin colour SOOOO dark alr still wear dark clothes from head to toe. what he trying to do? be funny is it? cox if he is, i think he succeeded. i really think it's damn funny. HAHAHAHAHA. seriously. summor it's at night know then he still sit at the road side no move. using a lousy cam i have on my camera. this is what will happen. TOTALLY CAMOUFLAGE! i'm not trying to be mean or what. but it is really DAMN funny. HAHAHAHAHHAAH!

ok the whole thing in red and the pic is taken from lyn's blog.
couldnt stop laughing la. so im gonna share this with everyone.
damn farnie.

and toilet roll friend no. 1, u din sound THAT sincere when u sing the song lor wth.
haha. but anyway thanks for the song.
i will sing it back to you but i forgot the tune (if there even is one)
LOL.

bloody hell i woke up at 8.30. -_-
means im gonna be damn tired tonight and i wont be able to talk to JiaWen for long before im too tired and fall asleep. )))=

anyway happy national day.
so corny.

when just yesterday everything seems so lost.
thanks super alot. (((=

uber sleepy.

2007-08-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

was super tired when i took 88 back to tpy from JiaWen's hse.
i couldnt believe i slept till tpy interchange.
i din sleep all the way but i cant rmb when i feel asleep.

so i met lyn.
and i saw reen and jessi.
first time i saw reen this sem. wth.
and she's no apologetic abt it. -_-

anyway bought durians.!
first box was damn nice.
super sweet. ok i can take super sweet durians cause it just taste too good.
but the subsequent two boxes were ugh.

so i met yili and kat today while travelling ard spore.
both are farnie ppl.
and i finally got to eat mensa western.
prob the only reason that makes me wanna go back to TP.
i dont mind eating another sem of koufu and canteen food so long as i can stay at TAS.
but that's never gonna happen.

im looking forward to tmr cause im gonna stay over at JiaWen's hse after whatever we're gonna do in the afternoon.
and we're gonna have carnivor on friday.! (((=
supposed to be 13 ppl but now left 8 ppl. so saddening. ugh.

so damn tired.
off to sleep now.
thank goodness opera is finally over.
and oh i think there's an earthquake now. small one though.
always happens in tpy area.
i can still sleep though cause im too damn bloody tired and im praying damn hard i dont wake up before 10am tmr.

cracks in my foundation.

2007-08-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

seriously, im not surprised at all u din date me out this week.
or am i supposed to take the initiative.?

damn tired, i think im catching a flu.
man i cant be getting sick three times in one sem.!?
i still want my beef to taste good this friday.!
if i usually drink 5litre of water, how much should i drink when ppl tell me to drink more water when im sick.?

opera test tmr, and i haven studied.
im sucha lazy arse.

so many things to do during hols.
really time to get fit.
1. swimming + loads of tanning. (((=
2. bball with james and co.
3. roller blading with JiaWen.
4. should i continue playing vball.? hmmm, no form at all. too tough to get back form, too many injuries to begin with.
5. needa work hard, 2 jobs so for each job i dont exceed $500 and wont get cpf deducted. wait till i can be a little more financially independent then i'll contribute to my cpf. when will that day come.?
6. earn more money esp when xinny and wenny's bdae's on october.! (((=
7. earn more money so i can go hols with my friend and pay on my own. i wont go if im not paying on my own.
8. basically i need to earn alot of money to do a lot of things. and amoré will come JiaWen, u just have to wait, thanks haha.

alrights.
i should be going offline and start studying.
but lemme try to listen to opera video now. hai.

THANKS LYN

2007-08-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

Please read the rules first:
Each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves.
People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly.
In the end, you'll need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their name.

and i was tagged by carolyn ong chee bye.
how old already he still do this kind of thing.?! i think u need another newswritting proj. (=

1) i smell my bolster as and when i feel like it.? ( i think alot of ppl know alr)
2) i always think of happy things my friends and i did, then i'll try not to laugh out loud on the public transport.
3) i think i cut my hair too often, but i just think it needs a cut.
4) i dont mind giving up everything to live in the sub urbs.
5) i have a fetish for beaches, oceans, seas.
6) i'll sit on the toilet bowl to finish reading an article or a chapter even if i finished my business, and i just found out u're gonna be more prone to piles. -_-

and finally the 6 peeps who are gonna be doing this. ( i would love to skip this part, but sorry)
1) wenny
2) xinny
3) linny
4) JiaWen
5) darling ariel
6) reen (even though i know u're still dead in kutu island.)

long overdue but just do lor.
thanks lyn, u always like to sabo me with these kinda shits.

2007-08-07T00:13:00.001+08:00

why do i always commit the mistake of thinking too much.?

what's up with these.?

2007-08-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

couldnt stop moving my head to the punjabi beat when i hear ppl keep on bombarding me with high sch musical songs.?
dunno what's up with high sch musical man.
everyone seems to be all high over high sch musical suddenly.

and so many ppl has spider-pig as their msn nick or part of their msn nick.

monday sucks.

2007-08-06T18:19:00.000+08:00

damn i hate morning tutorial even though its accounts.?
today's tutorial sucked badly.
i totally catch no ball la. dont know what the hell this whole topic is abt.

supposed to practise opera after that but i was too damn tired so i went to the lounge to chill with darling ariel.
then after those disciplined one finished practising opera we went to seah im for lunch.
had chicken rice which was uber salty.
the soup, chicken and veg were all sodium packed.
im not being fussy but all the rest says so too.! heh.

went back to sch with ari to get bese notes from laura.
my original plan was to go tpy tann, then go little india to meet wenny for threading.
but i decided im too tired to go back to little india la.
so i told wenny i dun wanna go alr.
then when i saw JiaWen in sch, i din feel like gg tanning alr.
but in the end i managed to convince myself that the sun's too good to give it a miss.
and that i shouldnt hang out with JiaWen everyday even though its gonna be v fun. lol.

sun was great but i dont know why i din get a nice tann after 90mins.
and my googles were spoilt, so i only swam like 6 laps.
my eyes couldnt take it.

oh ya.!
this morning a damn hot ang moh boarded the mrt at novena.
super super super hot la.! perfect height.
i could feel all the OLs' eyes immediately shot towards him and were all staring at him.
then when his gf boarded like 1 spilt sec later everyone had to turn away.
and boy did she not hesitate to stamp her authority by getting all cosy with him.
at first they were just hugging.
ok before i continue ariel u might wanna close this window now.
ok then they proceeded to smooching, his hands were all over her and i thought i saw her hands on his groin area.? he even had his hands inside the back of her shirt la.!
haha. siao ar u all.?
morning so many ppl on the mrt u think they will do that meh.?
those in red are made up.
sorry to disappoint u. awww. lol.

dinner time.!
good soup, good fish, good veg.
perfect dinner after swimming, er 6 laps also considered la. give chance pls. (=

2007-08-05T18:20:00.000+08:00

oh ya.
i broke my one month smoke free campaign when i smoked 2 fags.
i guess i just needed it for once too badly.
im sorry if i was such a disappointment.

special thanks to qiqi.!
ni zui liao jie wo. (=

and to darling ariel.
take care of yourself alrights.? (((=

CHALET

2007-08-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

okay, so here i am trying to recall whatever fun things that happened during 2K01 class chalet.
i seriously think the highlight and main point of everything that happened during the chalet was alcohol, alcohol, and more alcohol.

even before we started playing any games we were already drinking la.
and courtesy to linus for making me a half cup vodka half cup mixer as my first drink of the day.
wth, these ppl are out to get me drunk.

bbq was fun, as usual the beach ppl are the more fun ppl stuck tgt. lol.
then laura challenged shawn to an arm wresting, and shawn took a damn long time to win.
and then ohter challengers wanted to wrestle shawn and ohter matches between diff ppl started.
the winner was maggie's husband la.
wth his arm is so damn big and muscular.
i must say i think he is quite charismatic.

anyway more drinking came about after 12 when we started to play this damn cool game, 4 kings.
heres how the game's played.
all 52 cards will be mess around in the middle and we'll sit in a circle around the card.
everyone will have a cup of vodka + whatever soft drink they like and there will be an empty cup in the middle.
everyone gets to pick a card.
each number has a meaning.

Ace = set a rule. [ so you get a set a rule for eg, no laughing, so truout the whole game everyone cannot laugh or else they'll have to drink one mouth from their cup ]
2 = you. [ Choose someone and that person will drink. ]
3 = me. [ person who gets the card drinks. ]
4 = whores. [ Girls drink. ]
5 = have you ever? [ if i get this i'll said smth like "have you ever touched a dick", so those who did have to drink. (((= i love no. 5 ]
6 = Guys drink.
7 = 7th heaven. [ Point to e sky, last to point will drink. ]
8 = maid. [ Choose someone to drink with you whenever you have to. ]
9 = rhyme [ person starts a word then others will have to follow with a word that rhymes, cant get a word.? drink. (= ]
10 = sentence. [ Continue forming a sentence till someone cock it up. ]
J = category. [ person sets a catagory, and give examples. for eg. i say brands of sanitary pad: kotex, whisper, sofy .... ]
Q = questions. [ Ask someone a question, person being ask must ask another qns not related to the first qns and so on ]
K = pour part of ur drink into a common pool, person who collects e 4th will drink e mixed drinks.
game ends when 4th king is revealed.

so we had alot of fun playing 4 kings.
we set rules like karmy too hottie can't laugh but everyone else can.
say taihong is gay before you drink. farniest thing is when taihong has to say "taihong is gay" before he drinks.
when i got 5, i asked have you ever masturbate, and sadly all guys had to drink.

the game ended when grace, qy, hanbin were convinced they should stop drinking.
by then des was alr 3/4 knocked out.
karmy too hottie has an uncanny knack of forseeing the future.
im not so freaked out by it anymore, used to it alr.

when i came back from the beach with darling ariel des, taihong, matthias and shawn was alr damn high.
i missed the part when they did all the stupid things.
but i know shawn held his dick twice when asked to.
and des tore shawn's pants and we could see a huge part of his thighs. ooo.

worst part came when des got so drunk he puked (puke-ed) on some damn gross stuff everywhere all over the toilet la.
he even puked on his shirt and pants.
totally gross.
thankfully james and lina was there to help clean up the mess.
but even after that no one dared to use the toilet alr cause the smell was bad.
some went to sleep some of us stay outside to continue bbq-ing.
sweet potato and corn rocks.
its just cooked on its own but yet it taste so nice.
and karmy too hottie was sleeping on my lap all the while when we were talking and eating.

anyway we eventually all headed in for some much needed sleep.
and then ben started 'beat boxing'.
ok what he did was to fart non-stop for 3 secs la.!
damn sickening can.! geez, but he's big ben so we forgave him.
im seriously impressed with shawn's threshold for alcohol.
esp when he tah-ed so many cups la.
super impressive, i think he has a big dick now. lol.

some went to sleep, some of us went to macs for breakfast at 5am -_-
i wasnt very hungry but i still had a hotcakes with sausage meal. (=
was so damn full after that when i burped it was all the taste of vodka.
i think it was the first time i had so much to drink.
i think in total more than 15 shots of vodka.
cant imagine my sugar level now after all that soft drinks. geez.

after checking out, some of us went back to mac, some went home straight.
contemplated to go wild wild wet since i had an extra set of clothes and james, matt, and karmy too hottie wanted to go too.
but we decided not to cause we're all too tired.
others headed home, i went to karmy too hottie's house for some much needed sleep since i only slept for an hour. -_-

well i had instant noodles at karmy too hottie's house.
korean, was quite nice la.
and i got a see a showcase of her neoprints.
couldt stop laughing esp at those pose when u imagine urself holding a gun.? lol.!
damn farnie even until now.
surprisingly we managed to stay awake and talked and talked until 2.
that loser karmy too hottie say dun sleep in the end fall asleep first.
woke up at 6 i guess.? damn hungry dunno why.
continued talking for awhile then went off.
before i left her sis, wei ting asked me some math qns.!
haha. so shiok can.! long time since i did math.
i still get that satisfaction when i manage to solve the qns even though its just primary sch math.
that why i love u, math. (=

headed to white sands for hei sushi.
too bad no buffet cause i was damn sure karmy too hottie and i will be able to eat damn alot la.
dunno why we're both so hungry.
then headed to swensens for earthquake.
how i love macadamia nut, hazel nut, yummy raisin and mocha almond fudge.

walked back to karmy too hottie's house.
took a bus from there home.
i cant believe i've been walking so much esp when i've got bus concession la.
the walk to her house was abt 20-25min.? maybe longer.
but there was this damn farnie guy who kept saying his bicycle's playing with him.
weird la.
he thinks his bike's a stunt bike and kept doing stupid things that he thinks are stunts.?
how can u do stunts with a bike that even have a basket at the front.?!
stupid or wad.?!
i love walking cause its so quiet and its outdoors, most importantly we get to talk. (=
too bad it wasnt very cooling.

bus home was fast.! 35min only.! (=
and i walked home AGAIN instead of taking a feeder bus.
was too tired to blog and here i am.

alright, damn long post.
ciaos.

i love karmun and ariel.!

2007-08-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

i feel so much better now.
extra thanks to karmun and darling ariel.!
love you guys so damn much.
thanks for the many many huggs ariel, and joan, and qy.
thanks for all the concern too.
and sorry for all whom i showed the black face and HIs which i ignored.

din really study LnR.
was totally cannot get whatever im reading into my brain la.
never felt so pek cek before.
anyway i think i did pretty ok.
im just lucky i got the qns i knew how to answer.

took mrt to serangoon with ariel and walked to her house.
i cant believe we walk such a big round and got back to the same spot. -_-
like 45min walking la.!
but it was good cause we had a really nice and long talk.
and i feel so much better esp after the talk.
thanks ariel.!
we should do this more often.!
next time i can walk home from your house.
i think it'll take abt 45min. lol.
can try. (=

damn karmun u shouldnt have told me i should have stayed over at ur house tonight.
now im regretting so much i din ask u if i could la.!
ugh.!

to my dear friend:
im sorry i made you feel i took you for granted.
just wanna let u know i still feel v good talking to you.
really.! i'll call u more often in future.! (=

oh ya. joan wants me to let the whole world know i said she's loveable.
so, here it goes.
i think joan's a lovable person.!
joan seng, not joan ho obviously.

2007-08-01T22:41:00.001+08:00

fuck care LnR.
no mood to study alr.

my interpretation.

2007-08-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

went for bese lect today.
and i cant believe i went for it.
so i din get to practise opera, maybe u should say i din really felt like practising anyway.
yea, that would be a better way.
and i think i bloody hell suck at opera la.
but anyway i think i managed to do good enough to pass for the mock test.

and maggie seow was damn emo and agitated today.
i dont like to see this happening in class.
but i cant balme her because it is most prob due to her baby.
her stomach's getting really big now.
it must be her hormones. hah.

i always thought guys cant aim properly when they pee.
apparently some girls cant either.
im not trying to discriminate by saying its definitely the HTB students.
but i just cant help it.
and they cant flush for fuck's sake.
even after they poo.
like wtf man, is pressing that silver button that hard a job to do.?!
geez, it comes to no surprise majority of the HTB student are from the republic of china. hah.

dont know why im so tired today.
throughout opera and lect i was damn sleepy.
couldnt stop yawning.
left sch with karmun after we took uniform measurements for service next sem.

bumped into sammie baby at mrt.
she went sentosa for some sun tanning.
caught up a lil and said bye.

million thanks to karmun for making me laugh so much during the rest of the ride to ur house.
love you. (((=

really disappointed.
not the first time, neither will it be the last i guess.
really cannot comprehend how this can actually happen.
just my luck i had to know how u spent ur day.
really dont know how i should think.
everything points to something i wish wasnt true.
part of me tells me what im thinking is right, after all, that's what the track record shows.
yet part of me wish everything's not what i think it is.

I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try

fuck it.
so that's how much i mean to you huh.
thanks alot.
i guess i can just try to be there for u when u need me.
thanks for the memories.

2007-07-31T23:39:00.001+08:00

will all good things come to an end.?
will you.?

rest was crap.

2007-07-31T21:28:00.000+08:00

totally catch no ball during accs lect.
darling ariel was wierd today during accs lect.
you and i know why. (((=

went for karmun's class's accs tutorial straight after lect.
ok, so now i know how it feels like to have 4 hrs straight of accs.
well i din observe much abt their class lei.
maybe cause i was in a pretty familiar environment.
tutorial sucked.
got back test. got an A. pretty satisfied.
hopefully i'll be able to get an A for final paper too.
then i'll be my first A since i got into poly.
so sad la until now still haven got any As.

lunched at chinatown with darling ariel, karmun, linus, asmond, macho, and shawn.
i had my chicken noodles.
but karmun din get to eat her tang yuan.
so sorry. )))=

ariel, shawn, and macho din join us to go town.
linus, karmun and i watched knocked up.
i had to use karmun's ic and go in seperately la, cause its M18 and im still 17. -_-
so weird i went in alone so they wouldnt suspect.
the two followed a couple of mins later.
anyway they din check me but they checked karmun la.
so i got cao lao bin. -_-

knocked up was super hilarious la.!
damn varking farnie la.
but one scene towards the end was damn gross la.
super duper gross haha.
everyone should watch knocked up, even if u had to sit at the first row. (((=

damn tired now dunno y.
and i think my i need to keep my temper in check.
and im seriously appalled some ppl actually dun even know i was pissed with them.
amazing. and this particular person has got a lot to learn still.
like how to keep ur mouth shut at the right time.
anyway im damn disappointed with myself for being so easily agitated.
and i think i havent been nice to my mum recently.
ah, another disappointment.

屁啦.! (((=

2007-07-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

thank goodness im so over and done with with projects la.!
even though projects are over, i've got LnR interview this wed.
freak man.
anyway i si-ri-ous-ly think everyone's gonna get cultural shock when we're back at TP.
because for the whole sem everyone's damn slack and there's only 4 projs and we're suffering like hell.
never has tonning become such a norm.
i'm hearing everyone tonning these days. lol.
all the best to TP days.!
being in a class with nice classmates will help loads though.! (((=

and tmr des, me, darling ariel, val, ee hua, fion, joan, faezah, jas, ben and tiff are gonna pon bese.
so its 11 ppl ponning.!
might be more ppl maybe just that i dont know.
can u imagine bese class with only 9 ppl.! haha.!
can imagine wad's she gonna say.

i will like to thank all of you for turning up for this tutorial.
this is a very impt tutorial.
by right i shouldnt be thanking you all, but thank you anyway.
im very glad all of you (or should she say all 9 of you) made an effort to come down for todays tutorial.
it will be a very interesting lesson.
anyway, good to see you here.
good afternoon.!

so typical. haha.
i think more or less should be like that la.
haha.!

lunching at chinatown tmr with karmun, darling ariel and whoever else who wants to join us.
finally can eat my chicken hor fun.! (((=
and karmun can finally eat her tang yuan.

ok one month ago i got drunk.
one month ago i promise karmun im not going to smoke for that week.
and i havent been smoking from then till now.
but i think heaven's making fun of me.
now there's spore fags selling at $8/pak la.! wth.
so cheap.! and according to sammie baby its quite nice.
i'll be lying if i say im not tempted because i always smoke when i drink.
but i'll try hard not to succumb to temptation.
anyway really wanna thank karmun and darling ariel for making me last so long without fags.!
love you guys.! huggs (satisfied.? i mean it though)

haha.
wenny jia you for ur A's.!
so glad u're finally putting in effort.
and ur heng heng was always there, but u did well this time because u really put in effort.
and practising is considered putting in effort.!
keep it up up up up up.!! (((=
JIAYOUS.!
and so glad u managed to change ur old ways and u're so sensible now abt you know who.
anyway everything will go well and dont fret so much over it.
and when are you going to change your blogskin because i still cant read ur blog. -_-

meeting sammie baby on thurs.!
pratas + LK.!
i can finally give u ur bdae drink treat la.!
so long ago.!
so many things to tell u.!
haha.! so excited.! (((=

HAHAHAHAHA.!!!!

2007-07-30T21:39:00.001+08:00

wa.!
cannot tahan.
i need to scream out loud now because warren's friendster profile has this foto.
the caption is so HOT, its the 12th foto.
go check out the 2nd person from the left.
GEEZ DAMN FARNIE LA.!
my stomach is so hurted now. haha.! bth.

supposed sunday.

2007-07-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning, and was cold sweating quite badly cause i had a bad dream.
in the dream smth happened to karmun and she got hospitalised but she din tell me. (if really got anything happen to u, u betta inform me.)
and i only got to know it from linus.

anyway i texted her to see if she's working to check if she's alright.
then she said she also had a bad dream and it also had linus in it.
ok then it was pretty freaky.

but its just a dream so nvm.
dont need to think too much into it.

tried to do accounts tutorial but there was no calculations at all la.
except one small part.
all of them is theory and linking la.
sorry i really cannot do accounts if no numbers is invloved.
so i gave up half way.

dinner at jade restaurant to celebrate my aunt's bdae.
im super not impressed with the ppl working in front office of fullerton la.
all see ppl no up one.
to think they call themselves a 6 star hotel.

anyway the restaurants was damn high class and i felt really intimidated and uneasy.
dinner was not bad.
good food, but then damn full la.
the portion was too big even for my family's standards. lol.
i love the cod best.! (=
if im not wrong daniel chia said cod is dying out very fast.
im sorry but u taste too good.

chiong-ed down to hereen to watch shawn perform.
missed the first song.
but shawn can sing la as usual.
haha. so proud of u shawn.! (((=
u are the authentic carribean of the pirate, opps.? lol.

erm did nth much after shawn's performance.
quite sian and disappointed din have fun.
and darling ariel had to leave so early. )))=
felt i had loads of things to tell ariel and karmun, but not the right time and right atmosphere i guess.

im still doing appendix now.
and bloody word is not responding and i havent saved.
dammit. i need to get my own lappy.

tired nights.